PTSD/depression Struggle

[loew89]

My PTSD went untreated for many years then i was finelly diognosed. But i refused treatment once again. Now all teh flashbacks are coming back and everything seems to b falling apart in front of me and i just cont control anything. My self harm behaviours have become worse and even the medications i am on seem not to be workign for me i just feel at a loss and tha tthe PTSD and depression have taken over my life and i have nothign left in me. I feel like a shell with nothing to it cause all i know are the voices in my head the flashbacks and teh thoughts of how hopeless i am and how i will never get out of this never ending pit i have fallin in

[when.will.it.end]

It sounds like you're in a lot of pain. I'm sorry things are so difficult for you.

I have PTSD & depression too so I know how awful things can be, living like this. My PTSD went untreated for 5 years too and has only just been recognised. Why were you refused treatment? It's a really great thing you are trying to get help, you deserve it.

What social support do you have? Is there anything that helps contain the flashbacks? Can you speak to a doctor or a therapist about what's going on for you? You deserve support.