I just dont know how much more i can take!!!!!!

mags21 · 25-11-2010, 02:59 AM

God knows i really have tried so hard!!! iv bin off work around 7months with depression....ive been on 4 different types of tablets! nothing seems to work i just feel like giving up!!! cutting is the only way i can cope!!! i hate myself, the way i am and the way i feel! nobody truely understands me! i just want to escape....i can't see a future in my life!! I dont want to cause any trouble....but i just hurt so much its killing me mentally!!! i cant sleep im just crying constantly!

Pomegranate · 25-11-2010, 04:07 AM

Apart from the tablets what other kind of help have you received or tried? If you didn't feel like this what would you like to be doing? I understand how much Depression can hurt and how suffocatingly painful it can be. Don't give up though, at the end of the day 4 different medications are just the tip of the ice berg to be honest. I have been on 8, with different combinations and with anti psychotic medication as well. What do you think might help you apart from self harm?

Horizon · 25-11-2010, 05:57 AM

Are you receiving any therapy alongside with the medications?
Sometimes, as frustrating as it is, it takes time and different medication combinations to get to a therapeutic dose.
If you are not receiving therapy I highly encourage it. That way someone could offer practical suggestions on alternate coping mechanisms or healthier ways to view yourself and the world around you.

pea soup · 26-11-2010, 08:09 AM

i can only repeat what the others have said.
im sorry i dont have more for you.
please hang in there.
things change from day to day. hang on until your day comes. it will. i know from experience.
sending my love.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Sigma · 26-11-2010, 08:37 AM

I often feel like that, but my counsellor was saying yesterday that she has had a lot of clients that DO find the right meds and they DO make a huge difference. Unfortunately it does take trial and error, but please don't give up on it.

Also, as the others have said, counselling/therapy as well as meds is usually more effective - because in the long run it's important to find coping mechanisms and address some of the non-biological causes of the depression.

Margo · 28-11-2010, 06:21 PM

4 types of med within 7 months seems rather excessive to me. It doesnt really give you chance to settle into one.

Many have many meds before they get the right one. From my own POV my world changed when they got the right med for me. It finally allowed me to start to get better.

Also the others speak sense too.

It may all seem overwhelming and dreadful now but it does get better.

Merc · 03-12-2010, 01:20 AM

How are things now for you? Have you been offered any other support?
As others said it can often be quite awhile till the right med (or combo) is found.
thinking of you
xx