It hurts when that happens. I remember a time when I told my therapist (well, after that session he wasn't my therapist anymore!) that I was suicidal and not sure I'd be safe, and he told me I was "avoiding the current topic". It's really disappointing, especially since it's so hard asking for help.
But you know what? You can be proud of yourself regardless. You've made the first step and it would be a shame if you didn't follow up now. It's good that you've realised you need help, and that you were able to ask for it.
The thing is, maybe you've been hiding it for so long that now people have a difficult time adjusting? As in, your friends might be quite confused by this if they're not used to you wanting (or appearing to need) help. Try not to condemn them straight away. Maybe they're at a loss, too. I know I'd be, if a friend randomly admitted they felt as horrible as I did at times.
yourockmysocks has a point, maybe your student mentor could help you find others who'll listen. What help is available at your university? You could also go back to your CPN / call them and insist on being heard or referred.
It can be a real struggle to get the help that's needed, but it's totally worth it. I hope you don't give up now; sometimes it just takes a bit of time.
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