So alone :(

beautifulpain · 14-11-2010, 06:25 PM

I just feel so isolated at the moment, and I know its entirely my own fault. I can't leave the house except to go to work and do my horses. Anything else and I feel physically sick. Tomorrow I have to post a letter and the thought of walking into town scares me.

I have no friends and never go out, I'm 21 and still living with my parents as I'm not financially able to move out. I just feel like 10years down the line I'm still going to be living like this and see no way out. I can burst into tears all of a sudden and feel so depressed and spend all of my time locked in my room.

Sorry to take up a whole thread I just don't know what to do at the moment and feel like I've hit a brick wall. I don't even know why I'm posting this, like I think someone will pop along and magic it better. Guess I'm just feeling like ****

sherlock holmes · 14-11-2010, 09:53 PM

What makes you feel sick about going into to town to post the letter? How is it different from going to work? Sometimess thinking about things from a different point of view helps.

Are you currently receiving any help such as seeing a psychiatrist or under the care of a mental health team? If not, I suggest you see your GP and talk to them about your anxiety.

I know you probably feel safe locked in your room, but its not going to help you in the long run. I know how you feel because I was agoraphobic, I couldnt leave my house for a while apart from going down the road with my mum. Now I'm back at college. Start with baby steps and work from there. It's a lot easier with the help and support of someone else, too.

beautifulpain · 14-11-2010, 10:32 PM

Well, when I go to work its 6.15am so no one is about and its dark, I just jump in my car and go. But to post the letter I'll have to walk into town in the daylight, its doable, I can do it, its not so bad that its stopping me, but I panic about doing it and would rather not.

I am recieving help for my mental health, but not really for the anxiety side. I'm on meds for depression and to help with my eating disorder and self harm, but I havn't really mentioned anxiety. Everytime I go to the psych I just clam up and don't really say much at all and nothing seems to be concluded at the end of it all. I've got an appointment tomorrow so really I should try and sort it out...
but again panic sets in :\