one step forwards and 1000 steps back

[Dead_Again]

okay, i really thought i could do it.. i thought i could beat all the depressing feelings.. stop all the cutting and burning and just get on with my life.. but its not as easy as i thought,, i tried.. i really did try but it was just too hard it just made the depression worse.. i haven't been eating anything except a small part of my dinner for just over a week now, and i can tell, its becoming a habit.. i cant remember the last time i was actually happy and now I'm cutting deeper than i have before, i don't know what to do any more.. is it really worth it? or should i just end it all.. please help.. i just want to move on for once in my life!!

[PassedExpectations]

Unfortunately it is alot harder to stop self harming that you would expect. That doesn't mean that its impossible, it just means that you have to put alot of effort into it, and you have to sorta have a game plan for how you're going to resist. And its also important to make sure that you don't just sorta trade bad coping skills (ex. not cutting, but restricting your food).

It helps to make a list of distractions and things that let out emotion, and have whatever you need for those in a handy spot, so that when you get an urge you don't have to think too hard to come up with something to do instead. Also have a person or two in mind who you trust and can call to get support or to have someone listen to you.

[Dead_Again]

thanks, i just wish it was easier to give up because the more ii do it.. the less strength i have to stop and i already feel completely drained..

[Melody'sAddiction]

I've been where your at heck I'm still there now. . .But believe me it gets harder before it's gets better but you just have to listen to that little voice in your head say you're not alone.

http://www.twloha.com/vision/story/ read this story. This is what inspired me to get better. I hope this will inspire you to.

[crazykat]

Recovery can be such a hard long process but in the end it is really worth it. You might find it helpful to read this article. You have to make sure you are ready and are committed to wanting to stop. Once you have decided that you need to look at why you are self-harming then put in more positive coping mechanisms, without these it just won't work. Also put together a list of things you can do when your struggling to deal with the urges such as ringing someone, writing in a journal, going for a walk etc. You can do this, don't give up because you deserve a life free from this. Take care
Kat xxx

[Dead_Again]

thanks every one :)