Scared.

[Cherry Tree]

The past couple of weeks I've been terrified of almost everything.
Going out, opening curtains, entering a room by myself - especially the kitchen, bedroom and bathroom.
I think I'm being watched. In fact, after tonight I know I'm being watched because I saw them in my room. Standing in the corner - watching.

I can't relax.
They told me to smother my girlfriend with a pillow. They kept running their fingers down my back and grabbing my wrists..Whispering in my ear that they are coming to get me.

I can't sleep. I'm scared they'll kill me in my sleep.
All I can do is sit here, in this spot..until morning.
I'm so scared. I don't know what to do.

[Buttercup.]

Try and take some deep breaths, honey. It does sound very scary what you are going through, and you shouldn't be going through this alone. Can you let your therapist or doctor know that this is happening? You may need a medication adjustment to help prevent this from happening. Try to hang in there and stay present. Get help as soon as you can.

*hugs*

Jess x

[Cherry Tree]

I'm tired.
It's 5.20am and I still haven't slept.
Scared to go back in the bedroom. Managed to sit by the window for a bit for a cigarette.
I'm tired of being scared.

[MayhemBee]

is there anyone you can talk to or be with who would make you feel safer?
take care.

[[Awakening]]

Sweetie, have you been sleeping badly recently (apart from this of course?) It might be that the men you're seeing/hearing/feeling are a result of you not sleeping well, like in the past?

Are they related to your flashbacks at all?

Sorry I wasn't very supportive last night. We'll work through this hon, you don't have to do it alone.

Love you sweets x x