BPD.

nicole94 · 09-11-2010, 09:04 PM

I don't know what to do :/ I don't know how to deal with these constant thoughts/feelings, and nobody ever seems to understand.
back in march, i was diagnosed with boderline personality disorder. I started DBT in may, and have been getting slowley better since, but then, this last week, i've just gone really low, i've been self harming constantly, and have made a suicide plan, which isnt for a while yet, but this week, i've been feeling less and less able to cope, and i want to carry out my plan now, i don't think i can wait much longer

. I dont know what to do though, i want to get help, because i dont want to kill myself, not really, but it feels like the only option.
my question is, what help is there for a boderline patient? everytime i've tried to get help in the past, i've just been dismissed as being impulsive, and gotten told that in time, the urges will pass. But they don't. They don't pass, they keep getting stronger and stronger, and i don't know how to deal with them, please help? how can i get people to listen, this ISN'T just impulsivness, this is serious, i'm scared of what i'm gonna do if i don't get help :(

DannieGirl · 10-11-2010, 12:19 PM

i know exactly how you're feeling. i have bpd and get these weeks too. i don't know what the mhs can do about these feelings if anything. the best advice i have is to just ride it out, let the people around you know how you feel and they will help you ride it out.

sorry i can't say anything better xx

ferretmonster · 10-11-2010, 02:14 PM

ahh i had similar problems in oxfordshire i have to admit, im not sure they are great on bpd BUT there is help out there, i promise,

in the meantime is there any hep for you atm? are you seeing anyone? if not can you see your gp more often? (remember you can see any gp you choose)

try and keep practicing your dbt i know its hard and in times of crisis call someone

i know all this is easier said than done trust me but things do change,

pm if you want, where abouts in oxfordshire are you? i was in banbury and it sucked but i did have a nice gp

xxx

nicole94 · 10-11-2010, 04:12 PM

thanks for the replys, ferret monster-i only have my DBT therapists, who aren't very helpful really. i'm trying hard with skills, but they just don't seem to work half the time. :(
and i live in abingdon, which also sucks :P

ferretmonster · 10-11-2010, 05:33 PM

yeah, the oxfordshire cmht didnt do much for me tbh, have you asked about being refered to (or been spoken to) complex needs service? thats what they wanted me to do before i left

nicole94 · 10-11-2010, 10:36 PM

i honestly have no idea what any of thats about XD i am still in CAMHs, as i am only 16, and i think the child services are different to the adult stuff, idk, maybe its just my experiences, they are pretty rubbish, none of them seem to know what they're doing. :/

Buttercup. · 11-11-2010, 02:23 AM

*hugs*

Don't give up on the skills girl. I know they don't always work right away, but in the long run they will help you. If you are unsafe can you get in touch with a crisis worker and maybe get yourself put inpatient until you are stable and able to work with DBT more? Also, maybe you could try also getting a CBT therapist so you can talk through what is going on more and have another support?

Hang in there <3

ferretmonster · 11-11-2010, 04:26 PM

ah ok, sorry yes this would probably be the adult services for bpd