hello.. I havent harmed in eight days and i thought I could do it.. but I feel really really trigged, but I really dont want to give in.. I'm sorry.. just really scared I guess...
sorry I dont know i just dont wanna give in.
Firstly, well done on the 8 days! Concentrate on how much you don't want to give in. Perhaps write a list of all your reasons that you don't want to SI, I've found that useful in the past. Also check out The Big Distraction Page, it has loads of useful ideas on it. Or go on to the Fun & Distractions section, this can hopefully keep you occupied until the urge has passed.
Also, do you know what has caused you to feel triggered at this time? It's useful to figure out what causes you to feel triggered and then you can work towards sorting it out.
But well done on posting for help. The fact that you've asked for support and know that you don't want to give in is a really big step towards recovery
Is there anyone that you can stay with tonight? Being around people makes it harder to SI and can make you feel better.
Just take it in baby steps, as in, "i won't give in for fifteen minutes" and then once that fifteen minutes is done, don't give in for another fifteen minutes. Breaking it down into small section can help sometimes.
Are you scared of the self harming itself or of what you might do to yourself? I agree that it's a good idea to be around someone while you feel like this (well as much as is practically possible).
Perhaps focusing on the 8 days is winding you up and putting extra pressure on yourself? Going 8 days S/H free is fantastic though and even if you do self harm you will still have the fact that you managed to go 8 days S/I free.
If you're concerned about how bad you may self harm try swopping your usual 'tool' for something ''blunter'' , something less likely to cause as much damage as your usual tool.
Theres no reason for you to go ahead and self harm, you can still fight the urges, keep talking to us on RYL (I have a pretty neat PM box!) and come out the other side.
And if you do S/H , its not the end of the world, at least you tried to fight the urges and at least you didnt give in to these urges first time.
*hugs* xx
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
Thank you all so much, it means more to me than you know.. but I'm sorry to say that I've been cutting a lot recently.. almost every day.. I couldn't help it
"If you were happy everyday of your life, you wouldn't be a human being, you'd be a game show host."
To a point we can't help it but on the same page we do have to take some responsibility for our self harm. It will hurt you more than it will hurt us or anyone else. It's up to you to decide how or if you want things to change.
Don't mean to be harsh, just saying it how I see it. I'm sorry to hear that you have turned back to self harming frequently. You could try the distractions forum to get some ideas on how to reduce how often you self harm.
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
