Basically I had some fears about uni & my work in the studio.
I explained it to my tutor & they know about my mental health difficulties & seriously, she looked at me like it was just my illness speaking.
& this isn't, this is real, (god knows how many times I say that these days).
This isn't someone in the mirror, or an invisible man, this is a tangible person who you can speak to who could **** with my uni work screwing my degree up.
I told her about why he doesn't like me & my beliefs about the fact that he will tamper with my studio work & how he isn't even a fine art student so why is he in the studios & I explained it a lot more coherently.
& she gave me that look.
It's the same one my boyfriend & friends have given me when I complain about the girl in the mirror or the invisible man & his followers.
I am half waiting to be asked when the last time was I spoke to my psychiatrist.
Can anyone relate? Anyone have any ideas how I can prove that this is even more real than anything else?
I know he won't hurt me, he's not that stupid, but he may tamper with my work & thats what i'm scared of, i just, i'm tired his morning, have to go into uni in a bit, i can explain more, but this is tearing me in half.
I don't like the way my tutor's talk to me as if I'm about 3 years of age. It's patronising, I'm not stupid and need an extra bit of help, and I wish they would stop.
I wish I could help, have you tried explaining to your GP? and see if they have any advice?
My only suggestion would be to take a camera - get a picture of them. That, or get someone else to vouch for you that they have also seen them.
It can be horrible when people do not believe something you have said, because of something that in the past may have been a hallucination. I have had this too, sadly a lot of people become wary when they have no way of knowing which it is, so choose to be cautious before confirming a belief or taking action - in the belief it is safer to do this - even though it is hurtful to us at the time.
Roiben x
If the Human brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we wouldn't.
Does anyone else in the studio know how he is with you? I find having someone to back me up always helps. Like maybe they could watch out for his behaviour and stuff too? That way you have someone else to help explain things.
Oh and i definitely understand about people treating you like your mad. People do the same with me too.
Just to follow on from PastExpiration. . . it sucks that you have to prove you aren't just making stuff up. Anything concrete like police records etc will help.
What I'm also thinking is that perhaps they don't know what to do. When you spoke to them was it more of an explanation of what's going on or were you asking for something? I wonder if you asked to have your work moved or made safe or to take it out of the Uni studio they might be more responsive?
Would you be allowed to set up a camcorder of some sort in the studio? Even if you don't own one of your own, they're available for rental, or you can get refurb ones for not much money. If you can get this guy on camera, that will go a long way. I also agree with the idea of asking for a copy of the police record of the incident.
I can't directly, personally relate, but I can guess how demoralizing this must be. Have you spoken to your tutor about it? Not to advocate confrontation or anything, but you do deserve respect and there's nothing wrong with reminding them of that.
spoken to my tutor, she's going to get some class lists from other courses for me to see if i can recognise him as he never told me his real name.
she's speaking with her manager & the dean for me to see what can be done, from what i know he isn't a fine art student so he shouldn't really be in the studios.
i have an assessment tomorrow & had to put my work up today. i am petrified he's going to take it down or wreck it.
christ i'm all stressed >.<
