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Carrina · 25-10-2010, 12:29 AM

I usually SI because I feel too much emotion, now I feel like doing it because I feel so numb and tired. I want to know if I would feel anything =/ I'm trying to avoid it because I have a GP appointment in a week and if she gives me an examination (she doesn't know of my SI) and I have to take my cardigan off she'll see if I make a new cut ... :(

PassedExpectations · 25-10-2010, 01:11 AM

you could try other things besides hurting yourself to try and feel a bit more. maybe excercising (the endorphins are a plus too), or something good, like a bath....

Carrina · 25-10-2010, 11:17 AM

Thanks for replying and the advice. I got through the night and then this morning ended up cutting because I couldn't calm down (so the opposite of what I was feeling last night). It's a vicious cycle =/

one_step_closer · 25-10-2010, 07:01 PM

Maybe it would be helpful if you spoke to your GP about your self harming. She might be able to offer you some advice. Take care.

Carrina · 25-10-2010, 07:31 PM

Hey. Thanks for the reply. I don't know this GP so would feel too nervous and awkward telling her about my self-harm straight away. I am going to talk about my depression and mood swings though, which contribute to my self-harm, so I'm hoping I'll get some help with that and that'll help me with my SI ...

nowhereman · 26-10-2010, 02:03 AM

I've had both, too much emotion and numbness. neither are particularly nice. But yeah there are other ways to cope without si-ing. I'm sorry you did this morning but at least you got trough the night, that shows that you can.