My life basically is falling down the pan again!!!
I'm not being Emo here but i'm fed up with it.
College failed me I retook the placement and failed it again
so now 2 years work down the pan...
I'm stuck on my Gcse's which basically means useless job if I actually ever get one.
I keep having stupid thoughts to OD as I'm basically fed up.
I want to bloody achieve something for once. Not go 2 years and then it all to **** up in my face...
I can't do another placement they have basically said your now on your own.
Part from management who have said she will give me connexsions but what the heck are they gonna do when I have next to nothing idea what I want to do myself no more...
I've had enough of working hard then it biting me on the backside...
It always ****ing happens.
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Ok, practical plans; what was it you were doing a college course in? You DON'T have to give it up; I'm sure there are other ways of doing things (it was in schools or something wasn't it? sorry :s)
Maybe connexions could give you a hand finding other routes into what you want to do? GCSEs are alot more than some people yet; it does NOT mean you'll be stuck in a useless job.
You're doing so well; don't give up!
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There are probably other routes into jobs you want to do/can do, and you shouldn't give up because of a set back. Connexions might be of use, don't dismiss them offhand.
If two different people told you that your skills werent up to scratch, I dont think you can dismiss their opinion. I know it's hard getting criticism, but if you take it on board and go for any suggestions they make, it's going to help you in the long term and help you succeed next time.
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Not liking someone can cloud your judgement and make you biased against their decisions. You should have been entitled to an appeal if you really thought they had failed you due to personal circumstances or just because they didn't like you.
Counselling might be worth a try. It doesn't work for everyone, and you do really need to work at it and want it to work.
I know that an uncertain future is scary, I really do. The future scares me too. However, you can't let that stop you in your tracks. It will come whether you are ready for it or not, so getting out there and at least knowing your options can help you come up with a plan.
Loz.
I think that really your heart wasn't in the placement, as I know you were considering giving it up even before you went back.
I completely admire you for having the guts to go back and try again, but maybe childcare is just not for you. I know for a fact that I would be terrible at it. Everyone has different strenghts.
I think you should definitely speak to someone at connexions, because they can be super helpful, and I also think that you shouldn't give up on your education, because there are all sorts of different qualifications that you can do. Some more academic, some more vocational. You have to do something you really feel passionate about in order to do well though, in my view.
Also, I think, and I know it's really hard at the moment, that maybe getting some form of paid job would be good for you. It's easier to get a job when you are applying from a job, as references are easier, and having a job shows you can do it, and are willing to work. Even just a few hours in a pub or restaurant, or in a supermarket. It can also give you a real sense of direction.
Regardless, I wish you the best of luck, and I hope you make the decision that is right for you. Hurting yourself is not the way to do this.
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Loz, try connexions, When I was 19 I went to them and did this E2E course. I really enjoyed it and we did loads of different things. You might be able to get a work placement or something. There are while your still under 20 a lot of different options so I think you should go and see them and batter some of the options out.
I did find them very helpful when it came to work/education related issues.
I think taking time away from 'childcare' might be benificial. Like I said to you yesterday, I really wanted to do it when I was 15-16 then realised it wasn't really my thing. Yeah I'm good with children but, the pressure just isn't helpful to my health and found something else I liked (catering). You gotta try different things, don't put your eggs in one basket so to speak.
But yeah I def recommend talking to connexions and try and look after yourself hun.
Leighx
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I know how you feel, and I can understand why you would be frustrated. It's hard to put a lot of work into something and then be told it's not enough. But I think that it's all for a reason. With their criticism you can learn how to improve. Those two years weren't for nothing, they helped you improve and get better at what you do. Try to look at them positively rather than negatively. Everything you do contributes to your life purpose and what you're meant to do. Everything happens for a reason, and eventually it will all turn out. What matters is that you tried your best and you worked hard, and you should be proud of that.
Hey I'm sorry you feel so bad about this but you're only young, you've plenty of opportunities ahead of you. Seriously. So maybe childcare isn't for you, It wouldn't be for me either. You could always do some voluntary work or something if you really want to work with kids. All experiences are good to have. Something better will come along, don't give up and don't hurt yourself.
