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[jrayherself]

I don't even know what to title this. I don't even think writing here will help. Every time I am on here I rarely get any responses. I'm about to break, about to burst, I'm going to scream. I have been on pain pills for the last 10 months and I am finally out. I have two kidney stones and I have been trying to pass one of them for a month and a half now. I've had to go to the hospital three times now for the pain.

I can't breathe, I can't focus, I'm getting extremely angry. I don't know how to cope, I don't know what to do. I have no one to talk to, nobody cares. I only care because I am so mad that I have a migraine. Honestly I can't live through all of this pain anymore, kidney stones suck and after 7 years of having them anymore I am about ready to ask for my kidneys to be removed entirely (I wish that were possible). I feel dumb writing here because I know nobody will read this.

I have homework and I can't focus on it. Every little thing is annoying me so bad. I don't know why this is happening. I'm losing it, every little last piece of my sanity is almost completely gone. There's no one to bring me back to reality. I'm screwed.

[lizliz]

I'm sorry things suck right now... try to do things to distract yourself - to cope. Like taking a bubble bath, or reading a book, or hanging out with a friend, or drawing, or listen to music..or...anything. Anything you enjoy. That should help your mood some.

I know how hard it can be to focus sometimes... I'm having a hard time with that myself lately.. but if you keep trying to focus, you will eventually. Focus is hard...but it can happen. Try to do things to help your focus like getting a good nights sleep, eating right, exercising, etc. I know those things themselves can seem hard to do too..but if you keep trying it could help

Try to remember that people do care. There is always someone out there who cares, no matter what. Sometimes it's extremely hard to see it - but they are out there.

[inblack]

I'm sorry that things are hard right now. Living in physical pain all the time adds even more challenges.

Have you ever sought any help for living with chronic pain?

Are there friends you could call?

If you have a GP (which I'm assuming you do) he/she can refer you to services in your area for support.

I wish I could do more. You can always PM me if you need to talk, I can't promise great advice or anything but I can promise to listen and try and be supportive