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bipolar disorder?
Well i don't know if this is a possibility or not. I feel like the symptoms i get (whatever they are) disrupt my life.
this is what it's like:
Some days for no real reason (sometime even when something bad happens) I feel really happy, and almost like i am high like i have taken some drugs. (i don't take drugs, apart from my medication clomipramine) I'm not just in a good mood, i feel amazing, and restless like i don't want to sleep. Very chatty, very active, want to go out and party and drink. feel very sexual, like i want to have sex with loads of people (i don't, just have urges) have loads of ideas and plans in my head and just feel very excited. I also have a high self confidence when i am like this, feel beautiful and sexy. This is all unlike me. I am not a partying person atall, and usually don't have a high sex drive either. and usually don't have a high confidence level either, usually i am a very quite person.
other days i feel very depressed and anxious. Want to sleep alot, don't want to talk to anyone. have low self confidence and feel ugly. sometimes feel like i can't get out of bed. feel excessively guilty about everything. have alot of suicidal ideation. and feel suicidal.
I feel like maybe i could cope with this if it wasn't so changeable. sometimes it's for a few days other times just a few hours, so my mood changes so often, and it makes me depressed.
I also did an nhs bipolar screening test online which said i have a high likeliness of having an illness in the bipolar spectrum. But i'm not sure how accurate that is.
neither my doctor or phyc have ever mentioned this though, even when i have described my symptoms, they said it was just down to anxiety.
I have been diagnosed with generalised anxiety disorder, an eating disorder, Obsessive compulsive disorder and major depression.
what do you think?
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