Is it weird to be comforted by the thought of suicide?
Whenever i feel really stressed or depressed, i just think about killing myself and i feel alot calmer. I think about it, like i'm planning it all out. I doubt i'd try again (i have tried once) it's just the thought of it that is very comforting for me.
is this strange? :/
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I don't see it as weird or strange. It's probably not a thought pattern a non depressed person would use but it's totally understandable when you're feeling low. Sometimes when the world and your mind feel out of control, it can feel very comforting to feel that you might have the ultimate control - that of ending your life and of hopefully escaping the pain.
I've used such thoughts to comfort me a few times in the past when I was very vulnerable and feeling so helpless, alone and angry. The thing is to understand it, explore why you feel that way, and have compassionate understanding for yourself until/while you work at finding a life affirming way of getting through tough times. Such suicidal thoughts are concerning, though, and really do need to be talked through with a member of your treatment team so you can work together to understand and to keep yourself safe.
No I wouldn't say it is strange at all. Maybe to non-depressed folk they might not understand having never been in a similar position, but I'm sure you'll find many who share similar thoughts on ryl.
I think it's comforting to know that when your world is spiralling out of control ultimately there is a final solution control switch that can shut everything away. You don't even have to be serious about it, sometimes the just thinking about it has a calming effect.
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yeah, you're definatly not alone with this. I've experienced this my self.
Like the others have said, Its understandable when you feel low and everything's going wrong, thinking about suicide, shows a way out - a solution to your situation.
I dont think its strange but i think non-depressed would find it abit worrying. as long as you dont think you would act on those thoughts and its not causing you distress then it should be fine but if its causing you distress then you should try and talk to someone if you can
Not healthy, but not strange to someone experiencing frequent distress/ depression etc.
I find it comforting, sometimes I go through my own 'plan' full well knowing I wont do it, but comforting myself with the fact I can if I need to/want to.
I find it conforting, but i also say to myself it's ok to think it but i can't act on it.
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To someone who is in the state of mind to think of suicide at all.. I don't think it's strange.
In my experience.. for the longest time, I've comforted myself on the idea of suicide, to the point of having a specific plan and a time and a date, that I've known for years.. and when things get horrible, I think of that, and it makes me calm enough to endure it for a while longer because I know that it will end at ____ day of ____ year.
(Note: that time and date is rapidly approaching and recently I've begun to challenge this plan I've ingrained in my head. thoughts like these are not healthy and I do not condone suicide at all)
I used to have suicide always in the back of my head as an option for (like you) when i got very distressed, it was always there. Not even thinking about a plan, but knowing it was an option was soothing.
But it kept me stuck. When suicide was an option really 'working' at healing wasn't possible. I think I needed to have it there, as an escape for a while, so things weren't so overwhelming, but once I decided suicide was no longer an option I was much more able to focus on healing.
Do you have a therapist or someone to talk to about these things?
Hope you are ok.
Hey thanks for the replys everyone. I know it's not very healthy, and i doubt i will try again, because i am not really scared of death, but i am of pain. and my last attempt was painful and scary. it has put me off.
spoke about this with my old psychologist. she says when having intense feelings it basically is a coping mechanism to help feel better and that the 'option is there' maybe differentjust thats how I understood it. I do it a awful lot. I feel anxious if I havent got something dangerous in my room too. hope you feel better xx
For someone with suicidal thoughts, it's normal, but to those looking in from another point of view, it's very disturbing & can be very unsafe.
Why do you personally think that these thoughts are comforting? What about suicide for you is so calming?
Please don't think I'm judging, I'm not, I've been there & am there myself, I just want to try & talk through it with you & understand your reasons & maybe from there, help you.
You are definitely not alone with this, it's actually fairly common in those with depression and whatnot. Making mental plans about it is called suicidal ideation which is part of it, again, that's quite common, and where you see a box of pills or drive past a certain bridge or multistorey car park and imagine doing away with yourself.
I too still find suicidal thoughts in the middle of great distress or depression or any bad situations, really. It's not healthy at all, because you're much more likely to act on it one day when you get deeply distressed. This actually happened to me once after weeks of spiralling downwards and having suicidal ideation about a car park. Suicide shouldn't be an 'option' in your life. There's always ways around depressing and distressing situations, even if there doesn't seem like there is.
What I think you should ideally try and do is find another 'last option' and idea to ponder with if shiz gets bad. To go see a good friend or family member, or a professional of some kind to speak to. If you don't feel like speaking, then spoil yourself with chocolate or a McDonalds, or buy yourself something. Just anything to replace the thoughts of 'peacefully passing away'.
I Don't know why it's so comforting, i sometimes think about it even when i don't feel particularly sad. It's kinda become more of an obsession to think about.
I mainly feel that there is nothing that is ever going to make me that content with life, so it feels like the obvious answer. whatever i do i am never very happy or satisfied with life.
but i know i can't do it because of my family ect and i believe that I will go to hell if i do.
so i don't feel like i am in much danger i just wish i could shift the obsession, because it kinda makes me sad enjoying the thought but not being able to do it.
yeah, you're definatly not alone with this. I've experienced this my self.
Like the others have said, Its understandable when you feel low and everything's going wrong, thinking about suicide, shows a way out - a solution to your situation.
I Don't know why it's so comforting, i sometimes think about it even when i don't feel particularly sad. It's kinda become more of an obsession to think about.
I mainly feel that there is nothing that is ever going to make me that content with life, so it feels like the obvious answer. whatever i do i am never very happy or satisfied with life.
but i know i can't do it because of my family ect and i believe that I will go to hell if i do.
so i don't feel like i am in much danger i just wish i could shift the obsession, because it kinda makes me sad enjoying the thought but not being able to do it.
It's possible to experience suicidal ideation, even if you're not actually depressed at that moment in time. It's not healthy, but I don't think there's a lot you can do about it.. well this is coming from someone else who also has that problem. I can relate to feeling 'obsessed' about suicide. I think the best way to avoid dazing off into a suicidal fantasy is to fill your head with more positive thoughts about life.. a good thing about the past, something you're excited for in the future, life plans, etc.
I notice I get suicidal ideation when I'm just simply 'content' and doing virtually nothing. It's not at all being the same as suicidal, so don't worry, it's not a crisis and not that 'bad'. It just increases the chances of you attempting suicide one day if things go wrong and that's bad...
It's possible to experience suicidal ideation, even if you're not actually depressed at that moment in time. It's not healthy, but I don't think there's a lot you can do about it.. well this is coming from someone else who also has that problem. I can relate to feeling 'obsessed' about suicide. I think the best way to avoid dazing off into a suicidal fantasy is to fill your head with more positive thoughts about life.. a good thing about the past, something you're excited for in the future, life plans, etc.
I notice I get suicidal ideation when I'm just simply 'content' and doing virtually nothing. It's not at all being the same as suicidal, so don't worry, it's not a crisis and not that 'bad'. It just increases the chances of you attempting suicide one day if things go wrong and that's bad...
that is exactly what it's like. Not really feeling suicidal just thinking about it alot. I'll try the positive thinking.
