Afraid of relapse

[rebelrunner]

So it has been around four and a half years since I stopped using SI, and the last couple years it hasn't been as much of an issue. I thought I was over it but lately I just keep thinking about it. A couple of months ago I had an issue with a near relapse, but didn't actually do anything, according to my standards. I just moved into a new place and college just started again but I'm unsure of what is triggering me. I recently confided in a roommate who I am close to about my history with SI so that if I needed help I could have someone to go to, but I never do because I don't want to bother them. I should also mention that I went off my meds about 6 months ago, possibly related. I just don't understand what is triggering this or how to deal with it without knowing the trigger to avoid or deal with. Any insight would be appreciated.

[Margo]

Moving can be stressful and college too. It could be many things and its hard to pin without knowing anything about you.

The thing i would suggest is to go to the doc and tell them all. Stopping the meds could be an issue. Perhaps you werent quite ready. Perhaps you need that crutch to see you through college for a while longer?

Im not sure. Just go get some medical support behind you.

As for the friend. I know its hard but try and use them a little. Im sure you like to help others. Others like to help also you know. It makes them feel good. Of course they dont want you in their room each night sobbing, but an accoasional "hey im feelin a bit low and could do with some company" never hurt.

take care

Matthew

[Merc]

the penguin is wise...
have you managed to speak with a doc?