need support...please

zivalover16 · 23-09-2010, 04:43 AM

Sunday night I got really bad flashbacks of something that happened to me when I was younger. It led me to cut so badly that I needed stitches. I showed some friends who went to an RA who went to the RD ( I am at college). The RD brought me to campus safety who called an ambulance. They came along with the police. The driver was really cruel to me but the paramedic was really nice and was going to let me go with friends. Well the cop turned and threatened to section 12 me if I didn't go by ambulance. Only made me feel worse. I got to the hospital and the PA( who was really cute

) asked me some questions while stitching me up. She seemed really understanding and was very gentle with handling me.... This is the first time I've gotten stitches for a cut and hated it. Mind you this all happened at around 2:30- 3:00 am... I called my mom who understood why I did it...... Monday I went to go to class but ended up throwing up in the middle of the building. So I went back to sleep.... Monday went well after that as did Tuesday. Today I went to class and heading back to my room had a panic attack and well There is only one way i know how to stop them. I went to the drs for an ear infection and they looked at my stitches and well looked at the cut too. Well I needed stitches again. My counselor informed me that if this keeps happening I could get kicked out of school..... Then I went to get my stitches and my roommate tells my mom what happened today. She threatens to take me out of school which would be worse... They ended up super gluing my arm and the dr was great and asked a bunch of questions and joked around with me which was fine with me... Anyway I am really in the need of support right now as today was horrible as was Sunday night/ Monday morning....

Sorry this is so long..Just need the support. thanks

signingchild · 23-09-2010, 05:12 AM

it's gonna be ok, hun.

che che · 23-09-2010, 05:25 AM

sending u good luck hope this weekend / next week better for u take care x

zivalover16 · 23-09-2010, 04:41 PM

Thank you

no point · 23-09-2010, 07:38 PM

it's gonna be ok. you can pm me anytime if you'd like to talk. *hugs*

shadow13 · 23-09-2010, 07:43 PM

you'll be fine, honey. I'm here if you need to talk. No worries, k? We're all here for you. Always.

zivalover16 · 24-09-2010, 03:55 AM

Thank you. I'm have a hard time today. I am not sure how I'm going handle having nothing to do tomorrow :(. Thankfully my roommate will be here most of the day... Thank you for the responses

no point · 24-09-2010, 07:48 PM

how are you doing? *hugs*

zivalover16 · 24-09-2010, 10:11 PM

I'm doing ok for right now.. I have concert tonight so that'll keep me busy. Tomorrow I'm not sure what I'm going to do as my roommate's parents are coming up.... Sunday I will be busy as I am going to a really big fair called the big E..... My psychiatrist called me today to check up on me as did my therapist at home. I made an appointment to see my therapist on Friday,next week. I am looking very forward to seeing her. Thank you for checking on me

zivalover16 · 24-09-2010, 10:14 PM

Oh yea The super glue came off with a band aid today, which it wasn't supposed to do . I went back to the urgency care center and they steri stripped it and put a water proof bandage on it.... I have the same dr as Wednesday who apologized for the super glue not working...

misskitty112 · 25-09-2010, 07:57 PM

*hugs* You can PM me if you need to talk.
I got kicked out of uni once, so I understand being scared and all. It'll all work out though.
How are you doing? I'm sending you good thoughts.

zivalover16 · 25-09-2010, 08:41 PM

Thank you... I'm doing ehh.... I was feeling really depressed last night but my roommate was here so I couldn't do anything... I went apple picking with some friends today so I am feeling pretty good right now..I am hoping it stays this way