Triggering (SI) - Going to the doctor

[zowie]

I went to the doctor about 5 months ago. He diagnosed me with a mild form of depression bought on by bereavment; but I don't feel I was entirely honest with him and left too many things unsaid.
I was referred to the adolescent mental health department at my local hospital, who took ages to get in touch with me. When they did, they only gave me the phone number of a volunteer counselling service and never checked up on me again.
I went once, never went again. Now I feel like I've been shunted, and things have become much worse.
I am so desperate to continue self-harming, after two years without it. I feel so miserable all the time, and I am still struggling with bereavment.
So I have finally plucked up the courage to make a new doctor's appointment. It's only a few hours away, and I am terrified of being ignored again...If this doesn't go well, I'm afraid it may even make things worse. Can anyone help me? What should I tell him?
I'm scared if I just pore my heart out and say everything, I wont be taken seriously. But I also feel that I shouldn't conceal things this time.
Please, any advice will help x

[shadowedseraph]

the best advice i can give is to tell as much as you can. Only with information can your gp help you :) best of luck i know how hard this is

xx

[x-Silvermist-x]

How did the appointment go?

[zowie]

It went okay. I was so nervous, but the doctor I saw was very friendly and understanding. I managed to be as honest as I could.
I feel terrible now though, I've been prescribed medication and it scares me.
At least I'm finally facing it though. x

[x-Silvermist-x]

I am glad to hear that it went well. It's always best to be honest.

If you've never taking medication before then I can understand that it can be quite scary. Did the Doctor also offer you counselling?

Well done on attending your appointment.

[one_step_closer]

I'm pleased to hear that your appointment went well. Remember that this is your choice, if at any time you feel that the medication isn't helping then you can discuss with your doctor stopping it. What do you think you need to help you through this? Maybe the next time you see your doctor you could ask about the other forms of support that are available for you. Good luck with everything and please keep us updated. Get in touch any time. Take care. xxx