overwhelming urges

[danow-91]

I really dont know what to do.
I had stopped with SI for 4 days,but i've started again and i cant seem to stop.I have got like this overwhelming urge to cut.
The urge is so bad because i'm nervous about starting school on monday.
After staying home for 2 years.I dont know anyone there,and i dont know what they are going to think about me.How are they going to like me if i dont even like myself.They probably are going to think that i'm fat and ugly.I'm just so scared that they are not going to like me.I know its weird that i worry about this but i dont know ...

[Horizon]

I don't think it's weird to worry, but I think it's unhealthy to worry to that degree.
I know it's hard, but try not to think about what they may or may not think about you. They are also probably concerned with what people think of them. It's the spotlight effect type thing...when people think people are focusing on things about them, especially what they consider negative things, when really people aren't even looking or thinking about them.

The more you worry about it, the more you will stress yourself and will probably "awful-ize" things, as my therapist calls it, where you focus on everything that could possibly go wrong.

[crazykat]

Starting a new school is always hard but remember they may not think that of you. I think sometimes we worry so much that it builds up bigger in our heads than what it turns out to be. Can you try and do something relaxing to try take your mind off it all. Hold on there hun

[UnIvErSaLoNe]

I don't think it's weird to worry, but I think it's unhealthy to worry to that degree.
I know it's hard, but try not to think about what they may or may not think about you. They are also probably concerned with what people think of them. It's the spotlight effect type thing...when people think people are focusing on things about them, especially what they consider negative things, when really people aren't even looking or thinking about them.

The more you worry about it, the more you will stress yourself and will probably "awful-ize" things, as my therapist calls it, where you focus on everything that could possibly go wrong.




I agree with everything this person wrote and in my 31 years I have found that 9 times out of 10 my perceptions were wrong or the majority over the top.
This said I understand and wish you the best. Focus on why you are going to school and try and let the school aspect take over! Let us know how your doing so we can support you. When you have the erg come on here we all care so that says something about peoples perceptions as well we all exist in the real world to remember that! There are plenty of us in all aspects of life most just don't share it, but we are proud to have you open up on here it does help!

Sincerely,
Chris

[danow-91]

Hi you guys
thank you for all the advice and suport.Maybe i'm making to much of this all.My head says not to worry this much but i cant seem to get rid of these feelings and this terrible urge to cut.