It's over.

Marshmallow. · 02-09-2010, 12:08 PM

No one cares, absolutely no one. Not really sure why I'm even posting this.
My mum even came in the room and saw the state I was in and just ignored it.
It's over. I'm done with this. I need to get out. I can't stand another second of this. I need it to end.

Catharsis · 02-09-2010, 02:20 PM

Can you tell us a bit more about what's happened to make you feel like this?
I am listening.
I care.

no point · 02-09-2010, 02:42 PM

I care. tell us a bit more if you'd like. *hugs*

Marshmallow. · 02-09-2010, 04:57 PM

I don't even know I'm just so down all the time and I can't stand it anymore and it's not like I have anything to live for.
My family clearly don't care, my mum told me I'm just attention seeking and my dad wants nothing to do with me anymore.
I only have a few close friends now because I've managed to push them all away. Whenever I tell them anything they don't seem to care though, they ignore it and just start talking about themselves. I'm always there if they need someone to talk to but when it's the other way round they're not there.
The only other person I could possibly talk to about this is my ex, who is supposed to be friends with me but whenever I try and tell him how I'm feeling he just doesn't seem to care in the slightest.
I have no job, I don't even want a job. I have no confidence and the thought of having to get up everyday and talk to people I don't know scares me.
I just really don't want to be here anymore. I can't see how anything would ever get better.

Catharsis · 02-09-2010, 06:27 PM

Is there any other trusted adult or friend you can talk to? I know that it might seem daunting trying to find someone to confide in ~ but venting can help release emotions. Perhaps there are teachers at school or a guidence counsellor or someone of the sort.
It sounds like you feel stuck with where you are in life. You could try thinking of a goal you'd like to achieve ( could be getting good grades, or feeling happier ) and write it down. Then break it down into smaller things to work your way there, and then again into actions that you can do to make it possible. Small things everyday?

dreamscollide · 02-09-2010, 10:38 PM

hey :) just wanted you to know that i understand thinks will be get better keep fighting!
pm anytime :)
xx

JaffaCake. · 02-09-2010, 11:53 PM

you're gonna be okay. keep believing that you can fight this.
stay strong.

Ethereal · 04-09-2010, 06:46 AM

Push through. Don't let those people get you down. You will get through this and show them you are stronger then they could ever be.

Marshmallow. · 04-09-2010, 09:36 PM

Thanks but I just can't fight anymore. I'm not strong enough to pull myself out of feeling this way again.
I'm tired. All the crying and hurting is exhausting me and I just can't deal with it anymore.
The thing is no one would even care or notice if I was gone.
It'd pretty much like I don't exist anyway so there's no point in staying.
The date is set. I keep telling myself not to worry, it will all be over soon. The end is coming.

Marshmallow. · 07-09-2010, 02:45 PM

Sorry about this.
I thought I was feeling better but I'm not
I tried looking through other peoples posts to try and distract myself and help others but I feel like such a hypocrite.
I hate feeling like this. I can't take it any longer.
I feel like I don't know who I am anymore. I don't enjoy anything anymore. I don't want to do anything anymore.
I've cut so bad over the last few days, it's keeping me going but I don't know how much longer I can go on feeling this way.