dont know...........someone please read i need someone today

:( im just gonna come out with it.
Im off into supported housing on 6th Sept and i dont know what to expect
i just dont wanna be here
i dont wanna exsist i feel as if everything is so incerdibly hard and unable to cope with it all!
i wanna just be invisible i feel as if i cannot do the thing with life
I feel as if things are too hard and things are so hard at the moment i feel so knackered and not with iot my p[yscotherpsit mentioned lots of massive words to me the other day dissociation, Post traumatic stress disorder, anxiety and stuff like that and she asked me if i though going onto meds would be better and i didnt wanna go on meds but im not sure whether it will make it better or nottt! :( :( :( i feel so alone someone please be there i cant cope with it all anymore

[Sunshine]

hugs, it sounds very difficult for you! i should be moving into supported accomodation soon aswell so i know how daunting it can be and it must be equally hard with the option of starting meds being given to you!

i dont really have any advice but if you ever want to talk then you can always pm me

take care
x

im just lost in myself i dont know what to do anymore, i cant survive like this i try and talk to people and they just dont understand they cannot understand, and then they get annoyed and not wanna know me anymore :/

[no point]

sorry you're struggling. don't have words right now. i'll try to reply properly later *hugs*

[Rhea-Billie-Tate]

I'm sorry you're having such a rough time right now *hugs*, it sounds like things are really difficult.
Medication is worth considering if it's being suggested that it might help. I understand that you might feel reluctant to try it, do you know what it is that makes you unsure about it? I don't like taking medication and would rather I could manage without it, but I've had to accept that, in the same way that I understand that I have to take medication to help my body with physical illness, I have to view my psych meds in a similar way - my mind needs just that bit of chemical support to help me to be well enough to work on everything else. Could you look at it like that?

I am in supported housing, have been here since December last year. It's been really beneficial for me, I've found it really helpful and I've been more stable since I moved in here than I have been for years. Every place is different so I won't go into specifics on here because I don't know what kind of support your scheme offers, but if you want to talk about anything that's worrying you I'm more than happy to help in any way I can, my PM box is always open.

Did your psychotherapist explain any of the words she used? Terms like that can be pretty scary and difficult to get your head around if no one's explained to you why they're saying them. I suffer from all of the things you mentioned (dissociation, PTSD and anxiety) so if you want to talk about any of these things you can always get in touch.

*Hugs* take care of yourself