What am I doing, what have I done.

[byepolar_bare]

I'm not entirely sure if this is the right forum, but it seems a bit heavier than everyday life. I'm struggling today. Last night my ex (who broke up with me over my sh) finally decided to let me know that the day I told her that if she couldn't cope with my inability to cope at times, and if she couldn't support me the way I did my damnedest to support her, she should leave...well she forgot to mention that she also had just discovered her pregnancy. I have always wanted a kid, and this was a girl that (before that covnersation) I would have welcomed having her as my child's mother had she decided to keep it. Wow, my grammar and sentence structure is horrible right now. please forgive that. Anyway...

That was not the only thing that she never mentioned. She also never let me know that she miscarried the child in may.

These days, I have a girlfriend who wants to be an equal, as opposed to be over or below me. She is damned intelligent and I like her a lot. However, the problem is that this whole mess is bringing up feelings for my ex that I am fairly certain are instinctual.

I want to go back to the ex, even though she constantly made her problems more important than mine, and essentially told me that my problems were always insignificant. HELP PLEASE

[lynx]

Tell your girlfriend. Does she know about that girl? Maybe the feelings for your unborn baby are triggering this urge to go back to her?

Also the fact that she didn't abort but miscarried may make you think she must have been a good mother. Being a good mother doesn't mean she'll love you.

So far for my thoughts on this. Good luck

Tineke

[88shelz]

its not fair to be with the current girlfriend if you still want to be with your ex. i can understand that you want her back...when you love someone you dont want to let go!
think through it all carefully though and follow the path that is goin to make you happy