*Positive Recovery Post* - Is this letter OK?

[Breeze]

So I am wanting to send this letter to my worker. Do you think it is OK? Mainly the bit about being upset about her not returning calls. Is it written OK and does it come across as appropriate?


Dear A
I am writing this as I feel I need to say this and I'm finding it hard to say it in person.
I really need some help to reduce/stop using laxatives. The amount is increasing rapidly and yesterday I took x and spent over 24 hours on and off the toilet.
This is no life and it is really getting to me now.
My sleep is very poor and I spend most days feeling sick or riddled with indigestion, more so than normal.

The other week I was in town with a friend and as usual in the afternoon I'm often in pain from trapped wind and I felt I needed to pass some yet to my shock and shame it was more. I messed myself, in town whilst with someone. I could've cried but as friend hadn't noticed I said nothing and ran into cafe to sort myself out. Luckily trousers were OK and I got home without being found out.

I am so ashamed. This laxative use HAS to stop. But how?

I have reduced and stopped them before and despite knowing how I did it before I just can't seem to manage it again. I am stuck. I don't know what to do. I honestly don't.

I was really upset on Monday (23rd) and desperate for help and support and some idea of how to sort this mess out. A message was left for you to call me when you returned to work on Tuesday but by Thursday I hadn't heard anything. I was kind of upset as I have had a bad week and as I don't call for support much at all outside appointment times, in fact I haven't called I don't think, my GP has called and requested you called me but I heard nothing.

I am somewhat upset about this, as I do not think I misuse support. And I am not sure what to do when I feel I need to talk to someone or ask for help. As I can't always talk to Drop In staff as they are not always available. I don't know who I can call or talk to and I feel rather alone with this right now.

I can't tell people why I feel sick. Or why I am shaking and light headed. How can I tell a friend I can't go to the cinema with them as I have had too many laxatives and I need to stay home. Or I haven't eaten for x amount of time and I am too tired to go out. Or just feeling too low or fighting the urge to cut and leaving the home seems too much for me.

All I do know is I need some help and quickly with this laxative abuse as things are getting out of hand and I am worried about where this is going.
I don't want to take them anymore.

Thank you for reading this.

Me

[Katherinelynn]

i think the letter sound fine,, i hope your okay!! feel free to pm me anytime!

this sounds a very responsible and assertive way of tackling an extremely tough situation.
i hope you are made to feel as though you'v been listened to
x

[Breeze]

Assertive, but not too needy? I don't want to sound needy or demanding. Or that I'm all silly because she hasn't called me. I am worried about sounding childish and needy and demanding.

[Hann]

It certainly doesn't sound needy, it sounds very mature and you explain yourself very clearly. Let us know her response x

[Breeze]

I gave the letter in to reception with Private and Confidential on it so her secutary don't open it.
She won't be in until Tuesday now. I wonder if she will call me before our appointment next Friday.

Am a little anxious about the response now.

[EyelinerAndCigarettes]

The letter is perfect hon! *Sits with you by phone*
Has she called? Could you call her? <3
x x x

hope she calls u soon