Triggering (SI) - feel's like iv taken 10 steps back

[Confused.]

iv not S.I in 4 months untill to days ago and im so scared because i dont want it to become my only way of coping again, and i have a 1 month old little boy i feel so guilty and im worried what my boyfriend will say if he finds out that iv harmed myself again he used to understand but after i got pregnant he didunt so much.
am i a bad mum for S.I again? i hate myself for not being stronger!!!

sorry for posting i just dont no what i should do and even if i want to stop again not at the minit anyway but i no i should for my baby and my boyfriend, im worried ill lose him if he finds out im harming myself again but i dont want to hide it from him it feels like im liying to him.

[88shelz]

self harm doesnt make you a bad person in any way
it is just your way to cope
you should really find the strength to keep away from it though

[Sprinkles]

I agree with the above post.
Also, whenever you get an urge, think about your son and the example you set for him. Also, try to think about why you want to stop for you.
Glad I can be of help. PM me anytime, luv RubyXX

[Laura2.0]

I agree with the above posts and I wanted to add, that if you need it, then maybe you should get some professional help.
But you probably know best if you need it or not.

[UnIvErSaLoNe]

I'm a very direct person so forgive me, but lets get serious here because your situation is. I also feel its far more complicated then just a new mother and a boyfriend who your scarred to loose really not so much lie to but perhaps the end result of.

So lets start here. First off your a good mother and I'll tell you why! Your SIing is a cooping mechanism as all us SIers know right! so your trying to keep things together for your family and your sanity right. How can that be seen as a bad thought process. Now we all agree the cooping choice is not a great one but hey you could do much worse. So first pat yourself on the back for trying. Ok.

Second it sounds like you have little if any support for yourself and its draining you. I want you to do something that might sound cornny....

I have no idea how old you are but what in your teens was the most fun and consistent thing in your life, besides relationships. Answer that then see if you can regain some of what you have had in the past for your me time. I'm 31 and still am young at heart by such i mean I feel I never lost touch with who I am inside and what makes me me.

I'm sick and a little drugged so forgive me if I got anything wrong and whatnot. My intentions were nothing but positive. I am a guy just so you know but most of all I'm just a human like you.

sincerely,
Chris with hugs of support. PM anytime. Hey i hope hearing this stuff from a guy puts a smile on your face. Some strange guy 31 actually carred enough to write you!