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Possibly Triggering - nonsensical nonsense
Silence is the loudest noise I can hear. So deafening is this silence, it is unbearable. There is light at the end of the tunnel.......always a silver lining....blahdy blah blah.......biblical....sylvia plath....apocolypse now. Such are the thoughts going through my head filled with emptiness.
Smoke another roll up.
Stare blankly at facebook and wonder....
What exactly am I doing here? Not a question I ask that is deep or rhetorical. Just simply; what am i doing here? hmmmmmmmm. Medication time, to numb the senses. To manage the despair and self-loathing, to make smiles happen like emotional co-codamol.'Take after or during meals...may cause heartburn'.
Enter happy,happy,joy,joy land of narnia. Go visit the 'listening lady';she loves to listen,to analyse,to tell you 'no.you're not crazy'.
Smoke another roll up.
Watch shameless and speculate that all manor like estates really ARE like that because you have met people that really ARE like that.
I wonder if there is a point to this pointless exsistence. I wonder if I should stick around to enjoy the fake happyjoy I am enjoying now.
I wonder,if just for a moment that I should stop wondering and pondering, and grab life by the cahoonas and just go with it?
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