Yipes!!!

[mi92186]

I just got of the phone with Human Resources where I work... I haven't been to work since the end of June... I called to tell them I can come back anytime after September 1st... I don't think that was such a good idea, though... I'm so scared!!! I don't wanna go back to work... So much can go wrong!!! But everybody is pressuring me to go back... And I see where they're coming from, I need to get outta the house and get back to a normal life, but it's just too scary... I don't know if I can cope at work... They said they wouldn't mind cutting my hours down, so I'm only going to work 12 hours a week, compared to the 30 I was working before, but still... I'm scared!!! What am I supposed to do??? What if I get the urge to cut while I'm there??? Or to purge??? Oh I don't know... Maybe I should call them back and tell them that I'm not coming back...

Someone please help me???

[teenytineytori]

I personally do not do well when I have too much time off. I know how it can feel when you are going back to a situation though that can be stressful such as work and you still have active problems.

My suggestion for controlling urges at work is to get a list of alternatives that are work friendly ready and have it on your person at all times. Then you can refer to it to have something better to do instead. You could also make a list of the reasons you shouldn't do those things or inspirational quotes or something to make yourself feel better.

Also, I know that when I used to purge it generally had to do with eating too much or triggering foods. Maybe you could pack a lunch or only work during "safe" times so that cutting and purging are not triggered just by the pure fact that a particular time is difficult for you.

Great job making the call and a step toward regaining back some normalcy. You can do it!!!!!