hi i joined about 5 days ago im 35 married with 2 lovely teenage children they at times really are the only reason i can go on , i have been depressed for 20 years now
!! reasons for this are i was abused by my mums boss from the age of 8 to 13 , my dad left us when i was 11 , i fonund out my mum was having an affair with the man who was abusing me , i started running away from home and drinking and mixing with older people who i thought cared for me ( now i know they didint ) i fell in love with a 20 year old who got me into drugs and he used to beat me then a good thing i fell pregnant with my son
and he changed my life he was so sweet and inocent i was very ill when i gave birth and we both almost died !!! i then was on my own with my son for 18 months when i met my husband he was very sweet and kind and loved my son i fell pregant again and had my beautfull daughter
we married in 1999 and in 2003 i found out he was having an affair he was the one person i thought would never hurt me but he did and it killed me inside i thought i could be happy with him and my kids but he broke that and the depression started to creep back in we split for 2 months but got back together and still are although somethimes i hate him for what he done ... jump to last year i got a new job and from the offset was made to feel useless and leftout started to selfharm again to cope had not done this since late teens stuck it for a year but have been off since janaury with depresson and anxity ,and various other illnesses .. i go to councilling once a week (she is great ) and she said something like this might help
thaks all x
