so fed up!

carla1983 · 10-08-2010, 08:38 PM

There is alot of things going on around me at the momment which im stuggling with. Last week a staff member put me on 121 for the night as i tried to hurt myself i felt ok and safe with being with someone overnight thinking that i would be of it the next day.
There was a meeting with all satff next morning and they said i have to stay on it to be reveiwed again today which it was and still im not allowed of it i am getting really annoyed now and feel like im wasting their time and taking someone elses support from them as i really do feel happy im not stuggling and am stable why are they keeping me trapped? i cant sleep eat go to bed have a shower etc without a staff member with me!.
Has anyone got any ideas how i can show them that i dont need a 121 and does anybody have any thoughts of how i could use it for support rather then hating it? sorry it none of it doesnt make sense xx

secret squirrel · 13-08-2010, 03:51 PM

How's things now? Are you still on 121? I know how intrusive it can feel to have to be watched all the time - I spent time on 121s in hospital and although it kept me safe, it also frustrated me.

Do you feel that you would be ok without the supervision? If you feel that you are at risk of serious harm then maybe it's best to accept the situation for now. I think the main thing is communication - if you are able to be honest and tell the staff how you really feel and ask for support and ways to cope with your feelings then they will trust you more and when you say you are ok, they're more likely to trust that.

You're not wasting their time - they want to help to keep you safe and that's really important. I hope things improve for you soon. x

Siouxsie · 13-08-2010, 07:03 PM

I HATED being on 1:1 when I was IP, it was seriously horrible but you have to remember it's for your own safety. To get off it I had to prove I wasn't going to harm myself or abscond from the unit, however badly I wanted to do so. Be honest with them, ask for support when you need it and build up their trust again. You need to cooperate with them, if you fight it you're less likely to get off it. Weeks of pleading got me nowhere but when I started to cooperate they finally agreed to put me on 5 minute obs for an hour a day, which was my chance to show them I could manage and we built up from that until I was on general!

Sorry you're having such a difficult time right now. x

Steel Maiden · 16-08-2010, 08:32 AM

I was on 2 to 1 a few times and 1 to 1 quite a few times too. It was horrible I agree. I didn't shower for 2 weeks because I refused to let them be in the same room as me when I'm naked. My advice to you is to co-operate as Zara said. Don't tell the nurses too much that you're fine, just carry out things as if they aren't there. Read books, go on the internet, listen to music, whatever. Hugs.

ThinkingofRecovery · 17-08-2010, 11:47 AM

I did the whole not showering thing aswell Oly :) I also hated someone holding the door when I went to the loo. The worse bit would be rotation of staff as you would suddenly have a member of bank staff following you around who hadn't even cared to introduce themselves. Argh.

Sorry, kinda got on one then. Are you off it now hun? Hope you are safe.

carla1983 · 18-08-2010, 12:13 AM

still on it im curruntly in a rook in bed with a staff member here i really wanted to be of it but staff are not letting me i feel fine and im wastin peoples time im not stuggling so i really dont understand it. i lost my untie on sat yet i dont bevelive its true and they wont take me to see her as i have presents to give her im so trapped i need to be alone

ThinkingofRecovery · 18-08-2010, 12:18 PM

That sounds terrible hun.

Maybe if you got out of bed and tried to do some normal activities etc they would start considering taking you off it.

Sorry about your loss
xxx