cant handle being borderline anymore

[millionwishes]

im borderline and every day is a fight to stay alive literally. i spend everyday being suicidal its driving me crazy!
ive been in hospital for ODing 33 times in 2 years........ sectioned for ODing im just so ****ing fed up. feel like it never ends.

sorry rant over. *sigh*

[Sunshine]

i feel your pain! i wishi could help but im struggeling too at the moment so dont know what to say to help! sorry
x

[Stellata]

You're a human being who happens to suffer from a complex of symptoms that have been referred to by some medics as 'borderline personality disorder.'

You are not borderline.
You are you.

Are you receiving any support to help you build a more solid sense of self?

[millionwishes]

no not really.......... just have a social worker who i see. ive been re-refered to see a psychologist again. depends how high my paranioa goes and if i can get any trust to actually be able to work with anyone. i shut off alot.

[Stellata]

Seems like your defences are really strong. I'm wondering if there is a reason in your past for this.

[millionwishes]

i have alot of things that make me put up my defenses. my trust was been abused so many times. :(

[Skye37]

I'm really sorry you're going through this. I don't have much advice, but I do understand. I have borderline too and I know how difficult it is to struggle with everything every single day. I hope that things ease up for you soon... please take care. xx