Triggering (SI) - Fck fck fck

[Ragdoll]

Fck fck fck fck fck fck fck

I love piercing but piercing makes it easy to get supplies and I'm want to buy scalpels and do serious harm bt i dont cut at the moment, feeling angry cos arm hurts, waiting for surgery hurry the fck up, but need to hurt so bad. Need to care for the damage ive done. stupid i havent cut since before i split with kyle havent wanted to cut my charlies ill i cant lose a second godson i love him too much, hannah wont cope and i wont cope and wholl look after her then.met a really nice guy thorugh piercing he knowws bout selfharm cos i needed info on tattooing over them but i cant **** this up by being a mess but i dont know what to do psych team say im doing so well but im not i am on the surface im functioning but i need to hurt i need to bleed i dont know how the fck to get over this

[Mandimoo]

it is just the stress of not having an active strategy atm, you're wanting to revert to the most recently used. it doesn't always work, and never pans out in the long term, right now oyu need another way to cope.

be it bawling into a pillow, artwork, poetry, storywriting, music, shouting at a teddy (poor bear), paintballing, clay pigeon shooting...anything.

someway to release the emotion and energy. *hugs* hope you get through this, mand x