Triggering (SI) - .........

fallen wings44 · 31-07-2010, 02:09 AM

i havent SH in a while but sometimes i get suddendly triggered for no reason and the ugre is so strong that i have phsycally force myself not to SH............. i dont know why this is happening.........

dreamscollide · 31-07-2010, 02:17 AM

Hey :) has anything happned that's makin you feel this way?

i get like that it's just apart of us i guess and with a lottt of time will eventually fade away (i hope!)

wanna talk to distract yourself?
you got msn ?
mail me ?x

fallen wings44 · 31-07-2010, 02:37 AM

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Originally Posted by callmewhenyoursober

Hey :) has anything happned that's makin you feel this way?

i get like that it's just apart of us i guess and with a lottt of time will eventually fade away (i hope!)

wanna talk to distract yourself?
you got msn ?
mail me ?x

i really dont know.....

i hope so too......
yeah
no
ok! :)

fallen wings44 · 01-08-2010, 04:50 AM

its getting harder and harder not to SH.......i feel like i need to do it....

Stellata · 01-08-2010, 11:04 AM

How d'you get triggered for no reason?
I'm guessing that pretty much there is something that stirs up things each time. Which might be rather hard and painful to look at, but is worth doing so, rather than dismissing. That way, you slow your mind down, and hopefully are less likely to hurt yourself as a result of whatever's going through your mind.
Does that make sense?

What do you really need?

Sefka · 01-08-2010, 05:04 PM

I can sympathise with that - when SH feels like the only or, worse, the best solution.
But you say you've been okay for a while. Has anything changed? Did you get urges like this the last time you stopped?
Hope you can stay safe.
Hugs,
S
x

fallen wings44 · 03-08-2010, 01:16 AM

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Originally Posted by Stellata

How d'you get triggered for no reason?
I'm guessing that pretty much there is something that stirs up things each time. Which might be rather hard and painful to look at, but is worth doing so, rather than dismissing. That way, you slow your mind down, and hopefully are less likely to hurt yourself as a result of whatever's going through your mind.
Does that make sense?

What do you really need?

i dont know........everytime i think of my friends i feel triggered......

yeah it does

i dont know.....

fallen wings44 · 03-08-2010, 01:18 AM

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Originally Posted by Sefka

I can sympathise with that - when SH feels like the only or, worse, the best solution.
But you say you've been okay for a while. Has anything changed? Did you get urges like this the last time you stopped?
Hope you can stay safe.
Hugs,
S
x

i dont know.....

yes....

Stellata · 03-08-2010, 07:23 AM

What's happening between you and your friends?

fallen wings44 · 05-08-2010, 02:24 AM

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Originally Posted by Stellata

What's happening between you and your friends?

i try my hardest to be a good friend but all my friends dont hang out with me...one of them lied to me so she wouldnt have to hang out with me and when i tryed to confornt her about it she blamed me.......and a few of them said this summer they were giong call me and hang out but they didnt.....i waiting for the call all summer and im still waiting...... :(
i feel very alone.......

Cedrus · 05-08-2010, 02:37 AM

are you angry with your friends? I would be. Dont hurt yourself because the only one who will feel the pain and be punished is you. When i was angry with my mum and felt like exploding i would cut myself because i just felt overwhelming anger, but it didnt hurt my mum, it hurt me.

Have you confonted them?

fallen wings44 · 05-08-2010, 02:55 AM

i dont know.....

no..... because when i conforted the the one who lied she blamed me for it........

Cedrus · 05-08-2010, 03:03 AM

maybe u need some new friends who will appreciate you and not mess you about. Loads of people leave our lives but on this journey called life loads enter too!

fallen wings44 · 05-08-2010, 03:53 AM

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Originally Posted by Flames

maybe u need some new friends who will appreciate you and not mess you about. Loads of people leave our lives but on this journey called life loads enter too!

but i dont know how to make new friends.....

Katiee · 05-08-2010, 01:32 PM

Prehaps you could join a club or something to enjoy? You'll be able to make new friends that way :)
I know you feel triggered, but try your best not to cut. You can get through this :) Keep fighting.

fallen wings44 · 06-08-2010, 02:05 AM

ill try my hardest to.....

fallen wings44 · 07-08-2010, 01:38 AM

yesterday i saw one of them while i was at restant she looked so happy like she doesnt care how munch im hurting because them...... then today i saw one of them walking down the street when i was rideing in the car ...........just seeing their faces hurts so munch..........

fallen wings44 · 08-08-2010, 02:30 AM

i feel so overwelmed!!!!!!!! i dont know how to deal with all of this without sh!!!!!!!!!! *cries*

fallen wings44 · 09-08-2010, 04:37 AM

im trying my hardest not to sh but it seems like no matter what i do theurge wont go away....

fallen wings44 · 13-08-2010, 01:07 AM

my head is filled with thoughts about them...... i cant make it stop!!!! *cries* i dont know what to do........ the hurt wont go away....