A bit of confusion

Kitkat :) · 18-07-2010, 11:39 PM

Things are being put in my head. Mainly thoughts. I came to this conclusion a week or so ago.

For a while now thoughts have popped up in my head, some of which scare me, because I then wonder how I could think like that and that's when I realised that they can't be coming from me, because it didn't feel like they were. It felt like... Maybe, I dunno, they were somehow teleported into my head? Like someone removed them from their head and put it into mine?

They just don't feel like my own... Like a splinter under your skin, you can just feel that it's not part of you.

Sorry that's actually a really bad simile, I just can't think of a better one.

Rhuben · 18-07-2010, 11:50 PM

I get this pretty much all day every day, only time it stops is when I sleep and it gets a lot worse at night when I see the shadows as that's how they communicate via thought insertion. They're not 'physically' a part of this world so can't vocalise what they want so they send their thoughts straight into my head and I sort of hear, sort of think, sort of see what they're trying to tell me. A combination of the three puts the picture together so I can understand.

But yes they feel totally alien don't they, different from ones own internal monologue. I like your splinter analogy.

Does it worry you that you experience this? My CPN told me lots of people experience 'alien thoughts' or 'thought insertion' at times, but for most it goes away or they think nothing of it. If it troubles you speak to a doctor about it.

Kitkat :) · 19-07-2010, 12:06 AM

I don't know if it should worry me, if you see what I mean... But some of the things that are thought are a bit worrying.

I also get weird images put in my head to see as well, because again they just feel like a splinter in my hand and like they shouldn't be there because they didn't come from me.

Rhuben · 19-07-2010, 12:23 AM

Are they graphic or disturbing, or maybe compelling you to do stuff you don't want to do?

I would have thought that if they aren't causing much bother or harm that there's little need to deal with them. Sometimes I find some of the thoughts given to me quite amusing, due to their off the wall abstract nature. Different interpretations I would never have thought of before without the aid of others.

Guess its a case of whether or not it bothers you to the point that you want them gone?

Kitkat :) · 19-07-2010, 12:28 AM

Yeah, the images are all of those things.

It's not that they worry me, it's that... It's related to what I'm thinking about at the time. If I'm thinking about when I used to self harm or something then a sudden thought will pop in my head like "You have to self harm" or an image will come up of me doing it.

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I don't really want to daydream about things like this.

jen-x · 21-07-2010, 01:22 PM

I dont really know what to say just that i totally identify. I experience this as part of my psychosis. Your example of the bus is almost exactly what i experience. So yeah, just thought i'd let you know your not alone.

jen x

hidingme · 21-07-2010, 02:19 PM

kathryn-

maybe one of your others sharing thoughts hon. not sure. try not to worry too much but maybe try to talk to them?

that is really the only advice i have.. sorry im not much help but ..here listening and supporting.
*hugs* pm if you want to talk ok hon?

Hiding