Triggering (SI) - Kindof wierd question- girls only :)
Ok this is a pretty embarassing question. But I am really interested in peoples opinions/thoughts so I'm posting anyway. I have always had a bit of trouble identifying the 'reason' I self harm, and lately it has been something I've thought about, I don't know why just to understand myself better and in the hope that it can help me in avoiding triggering situations for me. Anyway I know one of the reasons among many is to see blood, not a clue why. However, I seem to feel less triggered when I'm on my period. Maybe because I'm already in pain? Maybe because I'm already bleeding? Maybe totally coincidental?
Does anyone else experience this or is it another element of unique craziness?
Thanks :) xx
I think I can 'get' this. When I was having nosebleeds, I felt something that I would typically identify with self harm. I used to irritate my nose so it bled longer for example. I guess I get the pain thing too. If your curled up in pain you dont want to self harm for the reasons of pain.
I probably make little sense here, but I think I somehow get where your comming from.
I think I understand where you're coming from. If I accidentally cut myself, it doesn't trigger me, which when you think about it, is a bit strange. It may just be because I know it's accidental, or it may just be that I don't get triggered like I used to. I hope you're okay :)
Lanny xxx
You can't lose hope when it's hopeless.
You gotta hope more,
then put your fingers in your ears and go,
"Blah blah blah blah!"
Thanks for replying guys :). Thanks MissAnonymous and Lanny- good to know someone can relate, if in a slightly different situation.
I'm fine at the moment Lanny :), it was just something I'd been thinking about xx
i actually get triggerd by my period because its blood and that triggers me, i can totally see where your coming from though.
You called me an angel, there must be a twist,
Have you ever seen an angel with scars on her wrist?
And blood trickling down from a gash on her arm,
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Thanks for replying guys :) *hugs back katie*. Glad this is understandable and not just crazy!
nicole and lookingcheeky...sorry to hear that you both get more triggered, I guess I should just be grateful that it's less triggering for me *hugs*
I get where you are coming from. When I am on my period, I am in so much pain, SI'ing is just not worth it. I also do not SI to often while I am on my period because I lose so much blood that I am worried that if I mess up when I SI and go to deep I will die faster. It scares me.
Yeah, I think that's probably it...I'm already in a heap of pain from period so why bother? ...Hmm to be honest I've never thought of that, I wonder if it's true :/. I don't actually want to die :(.
i dont have this problem as i dont have periods :) but when i accidently cut myself it hurts, but when i SH i dont really feel the pain through the rush i get. does anyone else get this?
Yeah, I think that's probably it...I'm already in a heap of pain from period so why bother? ...Hmm to be honest I've never thought of that, I wonder if it's true :/. I don't actually want to die :(.
I don't know if it is true or not, probably not, most likely it is just an irrational fear of mine (I have a lot of them).
i dont have this problem as i dont have periods :) but when i accidently cut myself it hurts, but when i SH i dont really feel the pain through the rush i get. does anyone else get this?
Yeah I can understand this, if I slip and cut myself while chopping veges etc it hurts, I actually faint often. How ironic! I faint at the sight of blood if I'm not expecting it ><. Not exactly the same thing I know, but I don't feel the pain when I SH really, it sort of stings but its mostly just a rush. whereas if it's an accident I feel the full force of it. :) hope this helps. PS. I am jealous of no periods
Thanks for reply unforgetting (sorry I don't know your name!). I think that's probably the same thing esentially, like already in pain so there's no point- like you said. Glad that someone has similar :)
I guess maybe because having a period causes all the horomones to change and throws them out of the "norm" and I know my sister is extremely moody on her period. I can be as well...my aunt is AWFUL. I can understand. I guess one of my "rules" is I can't SI when I'm on my period because I never know if my period is making me moody and I'm being irrational (isn't it ironic that I si and worry about whether or not its rational...either way its irrational but oh well). That and it makes me so dead tired all I want to do is sleep. I can see where you're coming from though...sometimes when I see myself bleeding from anything I just want it to bleed more. Blood can be a huge trigger for me. You're not alone and definitley not crazy.
Oh I hadn't thought of that DWTS4 (sorry I don't know your actual name). That could be true...ahh I know I argue with myself about when it's 'rational' as well, I guess we have to make rules at some point :/.
Hmm oh well I guess it will remain a mystery for now!
I'm actually the opposite and find that i am triggered by my period, i think sometimes because the pain gets really bad i get really anxious about it, so its a bit confusing, i guess its stupid that i've SH cause of that but i cant help being triggered by it sometimes.
Anyway i think it makes sense what your saying, i dont think its weird.
xX
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...My smile's just the armour I built when I was alone...
There was some part of me that hurt so badly, that I wouldn't ever be able to forget it.
It faded but the memories could bring it back any second, keeping me in the moment.
It would never fully heal. I could never really be free. I could never really be fixed. Now I just have to work out how to live whilst being broken.
I feel like I'm dying.
