Triggering (Substance Abuse) - I can't take it anymore

[carjunky08]

I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE! I need a drink or something. Its manly cuz of stress, bordum, and lonelyness.

stress cuz there's alotta bullcrap goin on lately. At school, im goin through all this bullshit with classes i took in the past and now i have to take over again. which is bullshit! i mean i dont mind taking things over again. im just really really pissed that they told me at the last minute tht i had to do this. so thts really stressing me out.

with work, its been a nightmare recently! they keep sayin they're going to hire somebody to help me with some of the work. YA RIGHT! Ive been hearing tht **** for 2 months, and nothing has changed. DAMNN IT!

that and along with ive felt really lonely lately and idk wht to do about it. i try to keep busy by going for walks, hanging out with friends whn i can, and other stuff. But, nothin seems to work. im still feeling lonely. and its really pissing me off to the point that i wanna drink. But i cant drink! i promised myself that i would be sober on my 21st birthday.

Idk, i just feel like im goin crazy lately. i just wanna go outside and scream.

sorry im ranting! any tid bites wold really help

[Breifly_Tragic </3]

Just wanted to offer my support.
I know how hard it is to get over a drinking problem.

The main thing to remember is that you do not NEED it. You WANT it. But so much that the line between need and want is becoming a little blurred. You ahve the right idea...trying to distract yourself in anyway is one of the best ways to deal with it.
Are you getting any professional help for this?

PM me if you need to.

[carjunky08]

Thank you for ur support, i really do appreciate it. and yea i see a counselor for it, and im supposed to meet with another counselor but i keep forgeting to contact her