It's a very simple question, but the answer means so much.
I was asked the other day whether or not I regret ever starting hurting myself and although I couldn't tell the person this, I don't. There are certain places I regret starting on and cuts that I wish I had never done, but on the whole I don't regret starting. I've learnt, grown and met such amazing people because of my experiences and I honestly wouldn't change them.
I feel like a freak for not wanting to get rid of such bad experiences. Like I'm not normal for "likeing" what has happened to me.
I'm not saying that SI or anything that goes along with it is good nor am I trying to glamorize it. It's not good at all and most days I absolutely hate what I do to my body, it's just not something I regret.
So do you regret starting?
Please be careful on how you phrase your replies. It has to follow the rules still!!
It's the children the world almost breaks that grow up to save it.
-Frank Warren
Yes i do regret starting...but it has served a purpose in my life and prevented me from alot more harm i believe. but i wish i had developed some healthier coping methods for sure.
Part of me really regrets me doing it and another part of me doesn't
I started out of curiosity really, then as i struggled at college due to bullying i never opened up to anyone so it became my way of coping, even if it helped me through that time, when i needed something, i wish i didn't pick sh as i way to cope. I have destroyed my body, alot of people said i could be a model as am naturally tall and thin yet whats that worth now? I harm and my thighs are awfully scarred. I feel so ashamed about it yet i cant change the past, i wish i could.
Having said all of that i feel that it has made me ore aware of the friends i can really trust and who are good mates and dont leave me. Also its made me who i am, am alot more caring and helpful to people if they need help in any way etc and i doubt if i didn't sh i wouldn't be here today or would be in a much worse place. At the same time i regret how bad the scars are that even if i cover them up people still no what there from. And i have learnt alot more about myself:)
Sometimes i think back to when my sh was at it worst and my depression to and i wonder how i ever got out of that hole
So i think mainly i do regret it yet sh has its ' good points'
Yes.
I regret starting because i only really did out of curiousity and that sorta let to me depending on it for a while. I really wish i had used better coping methods.
Yet in a way i feel i've learnt and grown from it.
But i regret my scars immensly.
Yes, I do. In someways, I think that if I hadn't started, I might not be alive anymore. But I do wish that somewhere along the way that I had learned some better coping mechanisms. I guess that learning those skills would have happened long before I started though.
Tell them to look up. Tell them to remember the *stars*. The stars are always there. We miss them in the dirt and in the clouds. We miss them in storms. Tell them to remember Hope. We have Hope.
There are times when I feel like I regret starting because of how badly I've scarred myself , but then there are times when I think that actually, although it's meant that I've ended up in a a bad state, it's shapped me to be the person I am today, and hopefully once I can recover and get things back on track I'll come out of it a better and stronger person. It's also been a big eye opener, SI was a subject I was very judgemental about until I started and I realised just how much it means to people and that it's wrong to judge them for how they cope.
I don't regret starting, because if I hadn't I don't know what I'd be like now. I regret that I have let myself become so dependent on it and i regret my scars.
im not sure if i regret starting or not. sometimes i hate what im doing to myself. others its the only thing i have control over,
so i guess im confused about it. i do regret having permanent reminders of the bad times though.
hmmm... i don't regret it... i quite like who i am now, mental health issues and all, and i think that in the end i'm a better person for it... but i wish that i could have become me without it... like that there was a different path to get here
this is my magical medicine cabinet. Left to right they contain: courage, hope, calmness, and strength.
The magical part: They NEVER run out, so borrow some any time you want.
I regret it so much. I regret not finding a better way to cope, because all that self-harm has achieved is making things worse for me and hurting the people who care about me. I hate hate hate the scars it's left, and I can't see anything positive that has come out of it.
Overall, no. I'm not condoning self harm, and I know it's not a good thing, but if I'd never started... I wouldn't be who I am today. Simple as that.
oh non-believer, please believe me.
is there honestly nothing in this world
that keeps you living & breathing?
you're a ghost in your own
goddamn city.
I dont...for the same basic reason as others really, it's made me who I am, shaped what I want to do with my life- even how I see the world and other people to an extent. So no, I can't regret that.
Sometimes I regret the scars, especially because I live in an area which has a very beachy culture- whenever my friends go to the beach I'm the one wearing knee length boardies and a full length rashie (swimming shirt), while the others wear bikinis and short boardies. I don't mind it so much but sometimes peoples reactions/questioning can be awkard, and I do have the occasional regrets.
