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Triggering (SI/Sexual Abuse) - I just need a friend....
I don't really know how to start this off properly...Ive been suffering with SI since i was 11 trying to stop but everytime i do things in my life happen that result in me doing it again just i can never remember when ive done it like ill wake up the next day with the cuts but i cant remember ever doing them if that makes sense?
Im having a hard time at the moment something horrible happened to me nearly 5 months ago and im finding it so hard to cope ive been put on anti depressants and they just make me feel flat...i hate them but i dont want to go back to my suicidal tendancies.
I also feel like such a disgusting person, since the horrible incident (of a sexual nature) I keep feeling the need to have sex all the time its horrible i feel so dirty and cheap im controlling myself mostly its just i cant stop thinking about it all the time it occupys most of my thoughts i dont think its normal but i cant be sure, myfriends dont like talking about the horrible incident as it upsets them what happened to me
But I need someone to tell me im not going crazy cos i feel like it, the voices i used to experience have come back and my psychiatrist seems reluctant to help me despite him knowing how low i feel at the moment to the point where i sometimes cant leave my bedroom for a week..disgusting i know
Please someone help me?
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