back on anti psychotics...

[pea soup]

so yeah...
ive been having such a hard time.
have spoken to a doc..not my regular one.
but i have haldol that i had from a few months back that i stopped taking because of the side effects.
but i started it again this morning along with cogentin to help the side effects.
ive been seeing my father walking around my house.
sometimes he just stands at my bedroom door.

my grandma is having a breakdown.
she thinks he is lost somewhere on a country road.
they may have to hospitalize her.

it seems the whole family is falling apart.
AP's always make me feel really "out of it".

so if i say anything out of order, please forgive me.
however, i am much calmer today after taking the haldol.

love to all.
xx

[chocostashchick]

rachel im so proud of you
good job getting to the doc and being honest and asking for help and giving these meds a chance
you will pull through this i know it
hugs

[Stellata]

(((((((((((Rachel)))))))))))))

I hope it helps. I'm glad you are feeling calmer, and well done for being honest.

We're still here for you.

[Mandimoo]

well done hunny, I'm so proud of you. anything that helps you tighten your grip on life is worth taking, its good oyu have osmething to help the side effects too. mand x

[Johanna80]

wonderful you!

[pea soup]

thank you everyone.

i guess im just being impatient.
i want to feel all better NOW.
but i know it doesnt happen that way.

i just woke up after having the weirdest dream and i feel uneasy.
i want to curl back up and go back to sleep but i cant.

i just really dont know what im doing anymore.
i dont even know what im saying.
meh.

[Mandimoo]

*hugs* at the moment is it very foggy, you think you can see and hear things, but you can't be sure they're real because the fog is too thick.

however, let the sun warm you, bask on a rock until the sun is bright and warm enough to clear the fog. rest and relax and do not let it worry you, better times are coming.

you have to let the sun do it's job, it will take time but it will clear this fog.


hope i haven't confused you....your mind has fog and the sun is your new meds. mand x

[pea soup]

thanks manda, lol.
i was completely muddled up until the last sentence, lol.
i love you.
xx