thank you for your quick replies.

i already have a diagnosed mental illness - i spent a year as an inpatient and since then i have rebuilt most of my life. but areas of it (work) are going v badly (i'm being bullied by the boss) i haven't the fight in me to do all the things i should be doing (seeking legal advice, etc)it's too hard. pdoc said it's up to me to work or not. either way i feel like the biggest failiure.