i had a horrible horrible dream (but it doesn't feel like a dream, more a warning, a premonition if anything) last night about a little blonde boy, toddler, falling from a monorail, looking down seeing him on the floor, obviously dead from a 20ft fall, had to be, eyes so still, frozen in the same position, a slow, drip of blood from a head wound gaping like the chasm inside me.
but no.
taken to hospital, he is still alive, a blonde-devil-boy-still-alive. laughing with so called mummy & daddy, a changeling. out to hurt me, conspiring with the person in the mirror & the invisible man. i fear for my safety.
i say it's a dream but it felt like visiting the dead & bringing the invisible man back with me, it feels more real than right now.
i have too many people i know with young toddler boys with blonde hair, i want to tell their parents something, anything, don't take them to alton towers with the monorail. please please don't. no, i'd cry but tears won't come, i feel at a loss with this information & i don't know what to do or who to tell.
i'm pretty sure it was managers son, everything fits & my manager was in the dream or what ever too, as was the mother of the boy (managers mrs).
i just can't stop feeling the need to tell my manager, i feel so sick, i don't know how i'd word it & i don't want to upset my manager, but at the same time, i have to tell him i'm sure. i just, i'm scared for myself, my cat isn't looking quite right either, something in him, i don't know, i want to lock him out so he can't come back & i don't know what to do, at all.
just, this premonition is important, it's my safety & his & everybody & i just.
i think i'm going to cry.
but how do i tell him without him thinking i just want to upset him?
That sounds utterly terrifying, I can't imagine how horrible it must have been.
But it was only a dream, and that's what you have to try and remember. That it wasn't real.
I understand that you are worried, and it's really hard not to say anything. But you'd probably just really scare them. If you really feel you have to, could you ask your manager something about how he's getting on? And then kind of make a light-hearted comment on how you always have to be watching them/keeping an eye on them/be careful with what toddlers are doing.
I know it's not exactly what you'd like to be able to say, but maybe better than nothing?
This is probably a total off the wall question, but what kind of relationship do you have with your own childhood? You don't have to answer here, but it might be worth pondering. Dreams that seem so terrifyingingly related to the present are often related to something from the past that is hidden in the present. In this case it might be some kind of rage and resentment along with acute vulnerability.
It's reasonable to warn people with kids, to tell them to be careful. [are toddlers allowed on high monorails anyway?] But I think the changeling aspect is much more clearly symbolic, which I mention above.
I hope that made sense..
That does sound very scary as a dream. Can I ask you something, though - have you ever had any premonition dreams like this that have come true? I don't mean to undermine what you're feeling, please do not get me wrong, but scientists and psychologists still don't understand the reason of dreams, why we have them and what they mean.
Whilst it must be horribly, horribly disconcerting for you, this doesn't necessarily have to be a premonition, love. Are you talking to anybody about this? Take care.
Katie: a relationship with my own childhood, i've only just woken, i'm very groggy, to be honest, i don't know, i have a very sporadic memory of it, i never really had friends (until i was 15), but to be honest, i don't think about it, so yeah.
Jo: I've had similar feelings and dreams and premonitions before, where i've visited places & things have happened, almost like astral projection, but when that happens i normally brings things back, like the invisible man. i'm struggling to think, i always have such strong feelings of de ja vu and i'm big on reoccurring dreams.
i'm supposed to be on the wating list for a psychhologist, but i don't know whats happening.
my boyfriend came round last night after work & pretty much said i couldnt tell my manager, i mean me & him get on well, my manager that is, been to his house for bbq's & drinks & things. we have a bit of a laugh & a joke, i get on with him best out of all of management to be honest.
his girlfriend & the boys mum i get on with too & she's only a year older than me, i get the feeling if i told her it would scare her, but i shouldn't think like that, my boyfriend says i can't tell either of them. full stop.
it's just, the summer is coming up, alton towers is a great day out & i'm getting all angsty. i keep trying to wonder if maybe it's a different little boy & they'll be something on the news when it happens, in which case maybe i should call alton towers? to me it doesn't really matter that supposedly you can't fall out the monorail there.
it just feels like this information is important & i need to tell someone.
Gosh this must be such a horrible situation for you. I'm trying to think of things you can do to ease your mind without necessarily having to tell your manager, do you think it would help you to ring Alton Towers and just double-check that children aren't allowed on the monorail?
Can I ask if you've had other dreams that you class as premonitions before? I'm sorry if you've already answered this question, I'm only asking because I've heard that dreams don't have to be taken at face value i.e the appearance of a boy could represent something else, (as Katie said perhaps your childhood) and the monorail could represent a repetitive journey for example. It might possibly be that the only reason you dreamt of a blond toddler was that your unconscious was searching for a symbol and because as you've already said you know a lot of people with blond toddlers then that is the symbol your unconscious chose.
You cannot get through a single day without having an impact on the world around you What you do makes a difference, and you have to decide what kind of difference you wish to make.
