Triggering (OD) - update going into hospital

[hammy]

hello
I'm not going into hospital now I'm staying at home. I want to end my life, I want to overdose, I have two weeks supply of meds now which would cause mischief. people ask me why, i say because my life is ****, well life is what you make it, but I have tried to make it I really ahve and then mental illness strikes, then I have no relationship, then I cant go to uni and finish the final year of my degree. I have people following me around all day and I dont like it, theres a van that parks outside the house and the poeple there are waiting to take me in. I want to die because of that, I want to not be here now becuase they tell me thats the way and why not folow what the devil asks just to shut away, i am unhappy and my support worker tells me to wear the plastic smile, but it's hard so hard. Why dont I overdose :(

[Merc]

hey dear hammy...its been awhile. *hugs you*.
Please dont. You will really only make things worse luv, and thats the lat thing you need right now, it really is.
I know you dont want hospital...but i also know you dont want to feel like this anymore. Why not go voluntary now and try it? Far better than being sectioned...
Let them see how you are and adjust your meds and help you...you deserve this hammy. AND you are strong enough to fight it, you really are. You can get back to school.

Please let them help you. I may not be around for a bit but i'll be thinking of you
Please keep safe hunni

luv
romp

[hammy]

I am going into hospital hopefully just for the week

[Jetforce]

Stay strong there!! **hugs**

[Merc]

so proud of you hunni!!
*hugs you*
I'll be thinking of you
luv
romp

[pea soup]

will be thinking of you
love you hammy
xx

[chocostashchick]

stay strong
good luck
hugs