Triggering (SI) - mushrooms?

[ameradian]

i took mushrooms for the first time about two months ago. and honestly, i really think it helped me stop cutting. ive only cut once since then, which is a record for me.

usually, i feel like there are a whole bunch of different pieces of my mind and they really can't communicate. i can rationalize things logically, but my emotional side will be thinking other things and not really tell me about them until its too late to prevent bad things.

when i did the mushrooms, it was like all my parts came together. it seems like now that ive felt what thats like, its easier to reproduce all on my own.

but im worried about the fact that (at least i think) this has been the thing that seems to have helped me the most. i mean, its drugs. drugs can't help. its ridiculous.

i guess i don't know what i'm asking for, im just really conflicted about getting all this benefit from such a dubious source.


PS- i don't really plan on doing it again anytime soon. as much as it helped, as i said, its a drug. i don't want to depend on it for my wellbeing.

[LD50]

I agree that it would be unhealthy for you to depend on a drug for your wellbeing. Luckily, psychedelics such as mushrooms are not very addictive and they can provide meaningful insight into your life. The claim that "drug's can't help" is not all that ridiculous; I know this first hand because one particular psychedelic helped me through a personal crisis. I do believe that psychedelics can offer help in some situations, but this comes with a certain caveat:

It is good that you say you don't plan on doing it again anytime soon. This is how it should be - as long as you treat the psychedelic with respect and think of it as an introspective tool rather than as a recreational substance, you can stay relatively safe. Otherwise, psychedelic use can turn into abuse.

I will offer realistic advice, rather than tell you that you shouldn't use this drug again: if you do decide to use mushrooms again some time in the future for personal exploration (which is completely up to you), make sure you wait plenty of time, make sure it is really what you want before you do it, make sure the setting is not recreational (i.e., tripping for fun at a party), and perhaps most importantly, make sure that you have a sober person with you at all times.

[SugarKane]

I wouldn't beat yourself up about it too much, if they genuinely helped you gain insight which you can then use on its own - it doesn't sound like you're in danger of abusing them. OK so they're not strictly 'allowed' and I suppose I have to be careful what I say here... but still, if you use them responsibly and educate yourself then I wouldn't worry too much :)

[Kallisti]

I agree with the above posters.

I will not say that psychedelics are good or bad, only illegal. They are tools, and a hammer can mash your brains or build a house. You just have to be careful.

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Also, there's very little threat of addiction to psychedelics, but that doesn't mean it isn't possible to become dependent upon them. Mushrooms, for you, have given you a glimpse of yourself. Now that you know what you look like, it can be easier for you to work to acheive that without the use of psychedelics.

And take it from me: you may not want to drop too many times, especially not frequently. Seeing who you really are can really be unnerving sometimes. Not that ignorance is bliss, but that you can only swallow so much at once; don't bite off more than you can chew.

[ameradian]

thanks for your replies. theyve been thought provoking. i think i still really dont know what to think of all of this. ive decided to take the help that this has given me, but with caution.