Triggering (SI) - I've no idea....

finding.my.wings · 13-06-2010, 10:19 AM

what exactly im doing here. i mean posting this thread...

someone, please tell me why keeping free of SI is good.... when im emotional, fragile, weak, useless and feel like crap.

im supposed to be free on this and not have these thoughts anymore...im meant to be ok now. BUT im not.

xgx · 13-06-2010, 11:29 AM

To be honest im in the same situation and i don't really know the anwser.But i think what would help is talking to someone about how your feeling and when your getting these thoughts try and keep your self distracted. x

Palladion · 13-06-2010, 04:16 PM

I'm sorry you are feeling like this, but there are many good reasons for staying free of SI. There less scars and less infection risks, but also harming is only a temporary fix, it doesn't solve the problem, so while it may work straight away it doesn't fix anything in the long run.

I'm sorry you're feeling bad but you are not weak, just by posting this thread shows how strong you are, you are actively searching for reasons to stay SI free, and to me that signifies a strong person.

feel free to PM me if you want to talk or anything :)
take care xxx

ashly* · 13-06-2010, 04:20 PM

staying free of SI opens so many doors. your mind is free and you can think of other things..also doing activities and not having to worry about covering your cuts or scars can help you enjoy more things. people will worry about you less and you can build real relationships with them.

having si out of the way is a great thing(:

i have the same problem with this website cause everytime i get on i think more about si because thats the topic everywhere i look..maybe taking a little time off of this website and than trying to clear your mind could help..i only get on now if i feel 100 percent safe and secure.

best of luck to you!! *hugs*

Katiee · 13-06-2010, 05:01 PM

I'm sorry you're feeling like this. Can you tell someone you're not ok?
It's alright to have days like these, no one is ok 24/7.

I hope you feel better soon. Try and keep yourself distracted, you can get through this, take care.

finding.my.wings · 14-06-2010, 06:24 AM

I wish i could say that i didnt- but i cant- thats lying to me, to you.
i did cut, not last night but today when i got changed.... it was so fast, i didnt really get a chance to stop it. it wasn't much and not deep but i feel so stupid now..... i mean why? becasue i was angry with my flatmates? thats not enough reason to well to cut myself. stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid me.

crazykat · 14-06-2010, 06:38 AM

Any reason or hurting yourself is just as valid as anything else, so don't feel you have to justify it. How are you feeling now?

finding.my.wings · 14-06-2010, 08:02 AM

Crappy, and want to cut more.

crazykat · 14-06-2010, 11:48 AM

Please try not to cut anymore. You don't deserve to be hurting anymore than you already are. You might find it helpful to have a look at this, which may give you a few ideas on some distractions you could try. Hold on there. Take care
Kat xxxx

finding.my.wings · 15-06-2010, 08:41 AM

hey crazykat, thanks for the suppot and stuff.
i threw away that blade today. there are more but i actually need them as i use them in a craft knife and i do a lot of craft stuff. I can ask my flatmate to keep the stuff in her room for me- which would be safest, but asking her to do that is so very hard..... they know that a while ago i got rid of the majority of blades- well the think i got rid of 'all' of it- and to go and ask her to do that now- well then it shows i lied and that im obviously not strong enough to resist on my own and its hard/horrible to be that way.

crazykat · 15-06-2010, 02:36 PM

Well done for throwing it away. I think it would be a good idea to give them to your housemate, I know it will be hard but I don't think she will think any less of you. Take care
Kat xxx