16 Days

So, basically I went 16 days without cutting, and then last night I had a bad night, and just thought 'meh - why not'. Does anybody else find that a block of time sh-free ends for a stupid reason?

I mean like; is it usually something major for you guys? Or just something small like for me?

[one_step_closer]

I'm sorry you had a bad night and self harmed, but very well done with the 16 days. I understand where you're coming from. Sometimes i'll start self harming again just because I haven't done it ifor a while or because I feel like it, without a real trigger. We all slip up sometimes, i'm sure that you can get back on the road to recovery. Good luck and take care.

[She'sLostControl]

Well done of going 16 days! sorry about the bad night =/ *hugss*
I'm with you on this, i always end up relapsing for a stupid reason and i hate it. Tbh with me i find that if i haven't sh'd after a long period of time then something really bad happens, that i actually can't sh. It's weird, it's like i'm too numb to actually hurt myself.

[Hannah Montana]

Oh yes. I almost cut because I couldn't find the hairdryer! I think that small things are triggering because i've routinely used SI as a means to cope. No matter how small the problem it feels like self harm can fix it (this is obviously not true).
What i'm trying to say is that when you felt distressed or sad (no matter how big or small the issue) you turn to what you know. But that shouldn't be used as a means to deemphasise the massive achievement you made by making it 16 days.

Thanks for the replies - I appreciate it :)

And SLC, I understand what you mean about sometimes things being so bad you CAN'T cut. I found out on Friday that I might be getting my P45, but I couldn't cut because I felt so drained I didn't have the energy, so I agree with you on that!

[Katiee]

I've been the same in the past, hun.
16 days is amazing, well done! :)
You can get back up and try again :D x

[Hannah Montana]

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Originally Posted by Gothir

...I couldn't cut because I felt so drained I didn't have the energy, so I agree with you on that!

Urgh. I hate that feeling. Its even worse.. kind of like being paralysed.

[Cazki]

You did very well to go 16 days without harming, thats excellent! Well done!! I'm sorry that you slipped up. Dont give up and dont beat yourself up, you will get through this.

Take care best wishes Ian

[SheHasHope]

I don't count days, but I find that after a long time of not self harming...I'll cut for the smallest reasons. It's a more consistent thing when I'm in a consistently bad mood.

Well it's been um... 2 days I think :S and I haven't cut again, I think I will tonight, but I think if I do it tonight, I can go again - and see if I can double the 16 days :)