Triggering (SI/Substance abuse) - I used green today for the first time in 2 years

[stumpy]

I felt great & giggly for about 5 hours but now I feel Miserable & am not sure it was such a good idea to do it, i've been fading so low & don't see my doctor for almost a month, but now I just want more please help with some new distractions everything in the distractions is getting old I only do 3 of the current I want something fun like previous experiences colors/strangest ever visions/most fun/best time real or fiction x

[Buttons.]

It's good that you realise that doing green wasn't the best long term plan despite it feeling good for a while. I would say the important thing to explore is why you felt the need to do it, what emotions was the green hiding? It also might be worth trying to go and see your doctor sooner if you are feeling so desperate.

Have you tried the Big Distraction List on the RYL mainsite? I don't see how it's possible to have done all of those!