...Do you find that the depression is stronger at some periods and sometimes it's the anxiety? Which one do you find worse?
I'm in a really bad anxiety time period right now, and the underlying depression is bad, yes, but the anxiety is so horrible, I don't even want to go outside anymore :( Some of my Autistic problems are even coming back, the inability to hear more than one person at a time and the little black and white dots that are made out of light that I used to see as a child and they're back now :(
But most of the time my depression is worse, or I'm able to hide the anxiety better, so people ignore my anxiety for the most part or think that it's not really a problem
Absolutely.
But pretty much always the anxiety is more intense. At least how I experience it. I think because it started before the depression.
I had the same issue with some medical staff before re my anxiety. But when it was really bad, they couldn't help but notice it.
Now I'm recovering, my depression has more shifted into 'ordinary' grief and sadness for the most part, but my anxiety lingers on. But not as bad, or on a different frequency. Thing is, I believe that as we overcome the defence side of depression, anxiety is bound to follow, as it's a deep change, which feels radically unfamiliar.
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It changes. But most of the time my anxiety is most noticeable, but recently I haven't been able to notice when I've been feeling down, which is quite horrible.
Yup. I also found that different meds made each one worse. When I was on citalopram the anxiety was way worse. But when I switched to paroxetine the depression got worse than the anxiety. I don't know which one I find worse. I guess I find the depression worse. Probably because I can generaly work out why I'm anxious. Depression for me is just a feeling that most of the time I can't understand.
People first noticed my anxiety. I often say "I'm scared that" or "I worry that" about irrational things and I'm always like "yea but" when people reason that I shouldn't worry about it. I'm better at hiding my depression than my anxiety.
This battered room I’ve seen before
The broken bones they heal no more, no more
With my last breath I’m choking
Will this ever end? I'm hoping
My world is over one more time
Oh I'm so the same!
Sometimes the depression just completely takes over, I don't feel anything, not even anxiety. It's weird, but yeah I think a lot of people feel like this. x
Yeah, they can switch with one being worse than the other. My depression came first, anxiety second. Currently my depression isnt so bad and my anxiety is worse, however it's better than it was.
I find anxiety harder to cope with than depression.
Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back, everything is different…
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I agree with most people, normally my anxiety is worse in the day but my depression can be worse at night, they dont normally happen at the time time for me, but i find depression harder to explain to people who dont understand as sometimes even i dont understand it.
They can both be absolutely crippling, but in very different ways. Like right now, my anxiety is sky-high. I try to go to bed, and feel like I'm having a heart attack everytime I breathe in... so I can't sleep, my heartrate is stupidly high, I'm shaking and its aboslutely horrible. However, normally there's a reason for my anxiety, thus its easier to manage. Depression for me can strike at any time, at any strength and can be equally, if not more strenuous. Although the medication I'm on really helps with it so.. So I think it really depends at the time which is more awful, and the underlying reasons.
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Explain me the reason why I'm so much in pain.
I have a therapist, but I really don't get along with her (but can't tell my mom that I don't want to see her anymore). I'm going to a day program in July...I want to go now but this is the soonest I can get in. Struggling to stay harm free until then, it's hard as hell, especially since I don't have my therapist to go to.
Like I said, I can't because I would have to let my mom know. She sees the same one and loves her, so it's hard to explain why I'm incompatible with her. And she's paying for the therapy...
Well, tough crap for her. You won't always get on with the people she gets on with. It's your therapy, your problems, your difficulties, & your bonds. They are bound to differ with hers.
