Had my first therapy session today.

[figure yourself out]

It kind of caught my off guard because she went straight into talking about issues and my past. I was okay with it, but I was really nervous about it. Then, I had a word vomit. xD Does this happen to you guys? I suddenly found myself cutting her off and talking more in depth about the questions she was asking me.

She's an art therapist, which at first I didn't like. I didn't want to draw pictures or anything like that. I felt like that was a joke. But, the more I think about it, the more I like the idea.

She evaluated me and told me that I show all symptoms of depression, well duh. I think I knew that one already xD

But, then also that I showed signs of Bi-Polar, and that was an 'ify' but since it runs in almost every single person in my family on my mom's side, then the chances of me NOT having are slim.

I'm quite relieved. She said that she could get me on the road to starting medication with another Doctor later if I felt like I need it, which I think at our next appointment I'm going to tell her that I think that would be helpful, but I don't know... Is it weird that I ask for the medication? I don't want to sound like I actually want to be drugged up, but I'm sick of all of this.

I took all of your advice and was honest, maybe even too honest. But, nevertheless, I'm quite relieved and hopeful.

Thank all of you for being so supportive :)

Now, how's this art therapy thing going to work?

[inblack]

I've never done specific art therapy but I have drawn some pictures with one of my old therapists....I personally didn't find it helpful, but different things work for different people (plus like I said my therapist was not an art therapist).

I don't think its weird to ask for medication. I mean thats what I finally ended up doing. Therapy wasn't working and I had to find some sort of help that would work so I asked for anti-depressants. Its been a bit of a journey with med adjustments and a few side effects (which have all tapered off over time) but I really believe it was the most helpful thing I ever did.

Good luck and keep us posted.

[ebec11]

I think art therapy would be good for me, but no, I have to have the therapist that isn't open to anything. Ugh.
I'm glad you're doing well with your therapy, word vomit is a sign that you want help, even if it's hard to give up the control.

[xbeckyx]

Well doen for being honest :)
Good luck and I hope it helps.