Triggering (SI/Suicide) - Can't cope :/

[o_Abbie_o]

I know I'm probably wasting a lot of peoples time and that there are people who have worse problems than mine, but I really don't know what else to do...

I'm so sick of trying, sick of waking up every day and still feeling so rubbish. I don't want to have to deal with any of it anymore... I just want everything to end, for it to go away, yet at the same time I still want to live. My parents don't get SI at all and telling them has made my cutting far worse than it was before, and I just feel so isolated and alone.

[Defender Of The Faith]

I know it's hard, but eventually things will get better. You've just got to keep trying until they do. Do you think you could try explaining your SI to your parents, to try to help them understand? And do you speak to a professional at all?
I'm here if you want to talk to someone
xx

[-Shae-Lynn*]

You are not wasting anybody's time. IF anything you are helping the people who feel the same way as you but are too scared to post. You are doing a great thing by posting and asking for help. Never forget that.
Unfortunately, things don't change over night. You didn't wake up one morning and feel this bad, right? You weren't perfectly okay and then absolutely terrible, it took sometime to feel this way. Why would getting better be any different. It sucks, but it takes more time to get better than to get bad. But that doesn't mean it'll never happen. Slowly you find that more and more you are happier and feel better.
Do you see any professionals? Sometimes we really aren;t able to pull ourselves out of this alone. Sometimes medication or even just talk-therapy is needed to help us feel better. Could you maybe try seeing someone of you are not already?
Killing yourself is not the answer. It will never be the answer, really. As horrible as you feel don't give up. Don't give in to those feelings. That's all they are, feelings. You aren;t controlled by them. Don't let them control you!
Sometimes parents don't understand SI, but that is not your fault. It is really difficult to understand. Why would your child want to inflict pain upon themselves? It's scary. Maybe try explaining to them what is going on in your head.

I really hope things work out for you.
PM me if you ever want or need<3