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Triggering (Substance Abuse) - Binge drinking and breakdowns?
I turned legal drinking age a few months ago and have been drinking way too much since then. I do it about once a week. I drink to be able to sleep. I drink until I black out. I hadn't in a few weeks until sunday. I drank too much and woke up hungover, nothing unusual for me there. But then yesterday (tuesday) afternoon, I'm not sure how to describe what happened. Breakdown doesn't seem to be the right word. I became angry - I was shaking - and walked out of class after yelling at my teacher. The anger laster for a bit, then I became exhausted, both physically and emotionally. It's like I didn't have the energy or the will to even keep my head up (at that point I was lying on the caf table and didn't give a damn about it). I barely remember what happened after. It's like I was so far away. I've had down before, and I've had some recently, but I haven't been this bad in years. I'm beginning to wonder if it could have been related to my drinking, cause i hadn't in a while. I never took the time to try to compare my ups and downs with my drinking, but now I'm beginning to wonder. NOTHING happened that day to set it off. At least not that I can think of. And I know alcohol is a depressant, but it happened two days later... does anyone know if massive amounts of alcohol can do that, days later or had similar experiences?
And I am NOT trying to blame all my problems on alcohol. I take full responsibility for my drinking. I'm just trying to figure it all out.
Sorry for the length...
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