Triggering (Suicide) - Is it still bad if the hurtful things are coming from your own head? (trigs SI as well)

[ebec11]

I wonder why there isn't a SI/Suicide section in this board :/
It's my voice, but it's so loathing and it's telling me to die, and I'm screaming that I don't want to die, but even when it whispers, it's so loud. I see things dying everywhere, or at least imagining them, and it's like I can't escape the thought of death. Has anybody else experienced this when they're really depressed? It hasn't been this strong for two years, though it's probably been in the recesses in my mind.
The SI helps quiet it a bit, but then it comes back full force.

[lynx]

Jocelyn (scarlett whore) recently pointed out to me that the voice I used to hear has probably been replaced with SI. The voice was telling me to jump in front of a truck, break bones and stuff like that. So yeah, in a way I can relate. It hasn't been going on for two years though, I think it's been a couple of weeks and then it was more or less gone.

[Stellata]

I experience similar to thumbelina. My GP says I have a 'very loud internal voice'. Much of it is formed in reaction to protracted bullying and emotional abuse. It's not always fully active though, but peaks occasionally. Therapy really helps me to understand what's happening, and to live more safely around it.

[ebec11]

'Very loud internal voice'
Yes, I definitely have that, didn't think of it like that before. I'm in therapy but am not doing well with it right now. Not emotionally stable enough to dig up anymore of my emotional stuff.

[DannieGirl]

http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/forumdisplay.php?f=29 is the link for the si board...
i'm struggling with voices and screaming atm...they seem to be getting worse...the demon voice does the encouraging of the self destructing and the screaming in the demon pushing away a little girl..and he's the screamer...
i wish i could say more to help but i don't know what to say