i am at a lost at the moment.
first off i
do not have a specified diagnosis the two they (being professionals) are looking at are BPD with cyclothymia or Bipolar. previously i have tried many different anti d's which have all had negative effects. i was they put on lamotrigine and amisulpride what worked!! i became more 'balanced' (my word) anyway after 4/5 months i became depressed after struggling for 7 weeks i saw my psych and it was diagnoses as a sever depressive episode. so her suggestion was to introduce an anti d. sertraline (this one was chosen because i had been on it before and tolerated it ok. but it did send my hypomanic) at first i outright refused to take the anti d out of fear of it destabilising my mood. i fought with both my psch and gp about it (not physically fight but i was very verbal) my CPN didnt really suggest anything either way. but as the depression got worst i started to change my mind bout sertraline and though it was worth a go as things were so bad.
so i have been taking it 9 days now i am experiencing rapid thoughts my speech is effected i am easily distracted and i feel intensily excited there are also a few behaviours that have returned (which i would be too embarrished to discuss in frount of everyone
)
i know no one is a professional but have others experienced this type of reaction before? i am scared i am becoming manic. but can things chage so drastically in such a short space of time? i dont know what i should do? i should probably go back to the doctor but i am scared that... they think i am making it up or something because of the argument i had with them in the first place bout goin on the drug. i am considering stop taking it but am scared that it would do more harm than good?
i really dont know!!! please any advice would be amasing!!!
