I have an addicive behaviour.
I thought i was over it but when i think about it I am always addicted to something.
First it was pot, then alcohol, SI/SH has always been mixed in.
At 35 I thought i had grown out of it but as i type i realise i've had too much to drink.
I tell myself off like i would tell my 16yr old son (stepson) off. I expect things from him that I can't even get under control myself. Thankfully he is good kid (as far as i know) we are close and i encourage honesty.
I feel like a failure.
